Hello Everyone, I'm Back!

Hi everyone,

It's me, Bonita.
I'm back on blogging again (well slowly getting back in the habit), and would like to catch up on my life updates since the last time I posted something (whoa, 2 years).

Let's break it down some (don't want to go aaalllll in that would be forever, lol):

1.  I've sacrificed a lot to be last year
2.  I had my Welded Magnolia in the Jacksonville Zoo "Zoo of Lights" permanent collection.
3. Had my 8foot by 4foot Woodcut Print Relief displayed at the MOCA Jacksonville.
4. Went to Art Basel Miami 2017 for the first time (hopefully I can go back again)
5. one of my Best Friends (my ride and die) got Married and I got be her Maid of Honor.
6. Ended up on Spring 2018 A/B honors roll and my last semester with a President A honors roll.
7. Graduated with my Bachelors in Fine Arts degree from University of North Florida (finally!!) 
8. Still work working for the bookstore 
1. Went from working at the law school bookstore.
2.  ended up having a new manager (who is awesome, she's one of my good friends/older sister/cousin).
3.  we both had to close the store because we both got promoted to a new store (1 hr and 30 mins away) to open as well  I got promoted to an actual team lead.
4.  I left there to be transferred to a different store back in September to be  more near my university as well for traffic/travel for my last semester at UNF
5. Now I currently work at the same location with the same title
6. I ended applying for something pretty cool even though I would like to go somewhere else but this a good start/step for me.
9. I've interned for Wolfson Children Hospital for the Art with a Heart program there ( making art with kids who are patients at the hospital). I had so much fun and loved it so....
10. After giving my Senior Presentation to the entire Art department aka my professors, They would love for me to continue making art on my own as well take a couple years off before going to Graduate school.
11. I already have in my what I would like to go for grad school for: Art in Medicine at UF (basically what I interned for but in Jax) however I would work with all ages from kids to elders. I could also go for Art therapy, however every graduate schools are different. 
1. I would like to either work with patients in the hospitals/nursing homes/rehab centers.
2.  As well work with kids at school 
3. or have a family practice
4. basically i would like to with everyone and help them through art, as it helped me.
12. Now that I am out of school and just working part-time, I wanted to make time to reeducate my self from k-12 subjects so I don't ever forget them. Now and days, I feel a bit off about how much math or grammar I remember, as well vocabulary, science, and history.
1. I already looked in to Khan Academy to check that out, haven't started, but can't wait to relearn some things. 
2. I have no shame to say that, plus I'm already dyslexic my self, so this is more to improve myself more. 
3. my dyslexia will never go away, however I learned from my research for my art work I made for my senior project, You may never get rid of it but you can always improve yourself by finding what works best for you. 
13. Last thing is I'm going to try to vlog my YouTube again. 
1. links should be on the side but don't worry I'm going to give this blog site an update as well. 

All righty, I know its a long read but we are all caught up (well the most important stuff), so I will be posting more things. Follow me (if you like) to see what more I will post, oh don't forget to follow any of my other social media too ( all links are on the side,if you want to). 

Have a great day,

Bonita xoxo

Well Everything Happens for a Reason

     This weekend went down the steep mountain cliff to climbing back up a different mountain. Luckily, I still focusing in my art and even when crisis hits, art always help coup me as well listening to music and having close friends to be there to support you. So that new job was not happening, apparently being a part-time doesn't really fit for the company, yup I had to leave. However, it would of been different if I was a fulltime because it was more easier to train me and prepare me for the busiest season of logistics, but I just told them I could do part-time and that after a couple of years of college I would be happy to become a full-time. During my training, it wasn't that I had  hard time understanding, it was that I was getting a proper training. When you train some one you have a handbook about what you are going to do, and the person must be full on training you and not get distracted on other things unless its work related. I'm not saying the company done a horrible job training me, it just I wasn't really structured, it was just shadowing the person and do it yourself and they expect you to do it all on your own with out a screw up. I could go on but I think I made the main point across.
     Well I thought the world as over for me and it feels like a relationship that started and ended in a month, it happen so fast but it suddenly came to an end. It's okay, I did have a down for the rest of day even in my ceramic class. I couldn't focus on making my slab work on the salt and pepper shakers with a resting bowl. During the time, after I told my mom the news, I was texting and messaging my close friends about what had happened and I didn't know what to do. I thank God everyday for these friends that I have because without them, I would be super alone to where I could careless about anything happening around me just trying to survive the world. Anyways, my friends suggested me to go back to my old job, UNF Bookstore: I really liked this job, I even wanted to continue to work there but Aeropostale hours wouldn't let me. Moreover, I went in the next morning to ask about rehiring me especially after what happen it was during the time of I need to pay my class, payments, and bills. They said yes, I was already still in the system that even my name tag was still in the office where my friends and I left it during our little ceremony we did for me leaving. Well I got so excited and blessed that I got a job, I could work at after what had happened the day before.
      During this time, I wished I could of talked to this certain friend, I known for 2 years but I don't know if we kind of ended our friendship or it was temporary or it was pause in our life before we could one day reunited again. This friend was kind of like my change in life, I wanted to show that I can be a better person and I'm growing up. Well, on the bright side I really working hard on my ceramic class that if you follow my Instagram/Facebook page you can see some photos I took of my work in progress. I am more excited to continue my art major that I cant wait for Fall semester. I don't even know if I will ever get another job or get promoted along the way but my degree if more important and I finally feeling like I'm getting closer to be graduating after all these years of complications (Oh follow me on LinkedIn). In the meantime I will just focus on my art and working my butt off, and not get anything to distract me. I even noticing that I am becoming a little different with the social circle, like I had my crazy fun times but now it like I don't mind having a fun time but just getting with friends and talk is just nice. I'm only 24 years old now soon to be 25 in Dec, but I feel like already 30+ haha jk.
      Well I will soon have time to write more post, maybe just maybe a video too, but just don't forget to follow me to keep up with what is going on in my life.
Check out previous post: A's with a new job and no BF!
Questions:
Have you even been let go from a job because they either were concern about your work progress and/or the waste of time for having someone being part-time?
What would do if this was to happen to you?
Did your life change to the good or bad after a similar situation happened to you?
Answer the questions down below in the comments.

My New Make-Up!

So like I said, I was going to start getting more mature with my life. Not like I'm going to change just be more mature and well together.
down below is my New Make up! I had taken from on my Instagram:

https://www.instagram.com/p/BCJmZIPCPgy/

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I went to Ulta Beauty because I always been horrible at buying makeup: wrong skin tone color foundation, wrong type of make-up for my skin type ( I have a combination skin with a small bit of sensitivity), and/or products that I would like to have but later realize I have no idea how to use it.
At Ultra, I had help by this amazing employee, she helped me find the right skin tone foundation and the product she thinks is best for me especially for my busy life. Bonus: during the special the company had, if I bought anything $20 worth of Ulta brand, I get a Free with Purchase gift. Well after I got my three products picked out, I was still wanting more because I want more stuff, not knowing the GWP had everything I actually wanted.
only spent $35 (with tax), and I got three product: Ultra Stick foundation, Contour and Blush sculpting compact, and NYX concealer, as well the small 14-pc GWP makeup kit.
Here's the link to show what I got:
(I couldn't get the image to save, so I could upload it here. I had to link everything)

• Foundation: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod11001355
• Contour/Blush compact: in Astoria http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod6500600
• Concealer: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod13621065

The photo of the 14PC make up kit (you have to buy a ULTA product anything $19.50+)

http://storead.ulta.com/Ulta.php?RelId=6.2.3.24

here is the actual products in the bag, all about full size to travel size:

• Mascara: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod3570105
• Lipstick: in Mauve me http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod6500604
• 6pc eyeshadow: its comes with mixed finishes, some I couldn't find on the site:
• Bayou and MoonBeam: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod3570089 
• Brownie: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod5080023
• and the other three (Full moon, Romance, Give me Gold).
• A Primer: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod2570089
• Eye Makeup remover: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod13661043
• A matte Lip Cream in Allusive: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod11921001
• Blush and Highlighter duo (couldn't find the apricot blush), highlighter in Yellow Diamond: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod11921007#
• mini Nail Polish in Lilac-ing You: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod3570051
• a Brow pencil: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod13561131
• a Dou Eyeliner Pencil (here's the normal sized) in Halo and Brown/Black: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod4370701
• and I got the Mint bag and it had the three brushes.

I really glad I got this, I'm thinking about getting another one for my mom as her Birthday gift.
I already been using the products and I'm already loving it. Again this is a small step, I'm still a beginner at using makeup properly.
Stay in touch for more posts.


What are your favorite brands?
What is your favorite product? (mine is always forever Mascaras lol)
Are you also looking for a start in your own kit?
You are you a beginner like me or an expect in make up?
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It a New Year and a New Me! 2016

Hey y’all I’m back

I know it been a while since I posted but here’s what’s up with my life even now that it’s the new year (btw Happy Belated Year of 2016!!!!!). So since I started my new semester at UNF as an Art student in the Fine Art major, I finished with two C’s (not bad passing wise, but I wished I could’ve of gotten B’s),  working crazy hours at my retail job as a Sales Lead Manager (I never hated the Holidays more working for it). If I had little less crazy from work and got more flexible with my classes I would have been okay, at least I passed and the school okayed me to stay in the program (even though I was supposed to get B’s to raise my GPA), and I am now taking Art History 2 online and Drawing 2.  I really got to focus on raising my GPA because it’s now a 1.09 (yay!):

So I started UNF from FSCJ with a 2.8 GPA, after Spring, Summer, and Fall semesters of having hard time with classes (failed most but passed a couple with C’s) when I was in Sociology major minoring in Urban studies which ended later so I had to take History as my new minor. My GPA dropped to a .94; which I thought it was insane ended up suspended for the spring semester, however due to my disability, many paper works, meetings with advisors, and the biggest help of from my favorite Career counselor, the school allow me back to a new major that accepted me. Normally the Deans of each Academic department wouldn’t allow those who are that deep in the struggles of GPA, but I had a feeling the dean saw something within me, they even don’t allow suspended student especially since the Art and Music are the Strictest in our school (to me though I don’t blame them).

I’m really making such I getting B’s (obviously I want A’s), as long I keep up with my project/homework and doing to the work. My job is a bit time consuming but if dint have especially with the pay I’m getting I wouldn’t be able to afford my classes/supplies or even commute to class. Now I’m in art I trying to discover my career path, my retail job is like an open door for: Sales, Marketing, Advertising, Management, Interior Designing, and Stylist. I was trying to have more of a fun yet get to be openly creative to what where I would get to work at. I’ve been looking towards working in the fashion field, I know right, not to many people know me but I use to collect all of Seventeen magazine and even look at others for the Fashion trends, styling tips, even got some advice from my mother since she a fashionista herself (she might know all about the fashion world but dressing up is no joke to my mom. Her closet of her fabulous clothes from her when she was in her 20’s til 2008 (she had her brain tumor and gain some weight from the recovery, she survived it)). I always had such interest in fashion, I might not like some of the girls I know who gets all dressed up and wears make up from known brands, and I’m a bit in my own style trend. I never know my exact “stereotype” of my fashion trend, I like to just make whatever I own work out and be very comfortable for the mood. I could write another blog on this. LOL

Back to the point, I couldn’t believe that how much I really enjoy art. I get so into it that I know I can’t cheat around or bullshit on my art piece because everyone could see it. I even get excited to try other art practices such as ceramic, sculpting, printmaking, even want to try to get photography in my elective. Like in my other many majors I’ve been in I would either get bored or find no point in the purpose for it to be taught. In art I notice that everyone in my class has to draw the same casting but they all have different technique of their own, unlike in my other majors someone paper could be exactly like my just worded differently or had better writing. I know it only the first 2weeks of the semester but I really can’t wait to see my drawing turns out in the end as well my interest in Art history. Speaking of art history, my first professor from Art history 1, she told us how she had a student who was a business major and need credits for his international business course, so after taking her for Art history 1 and 2, and later graduated. He ended landing a job because the Company owner/ceo or manger (he’s boss), has an interest in art that he collects them and even travel world to visit sites. He had a little conversation about their favorite period of art that he ended getting hired and would get invited to art events. Talk about amazing. I even have a Doctor ( in the military hospital, my doctors got deployed, some of them do get deployed or they are lucky to settle) who as such interest in art his wife is an artist and has a mini art gallery in his office (he wants one of my art to be in his galley when I come back for an appointment). Being in art, I notice that I see everything even more interesting in the values it holds, I usually like to stare at things and say things, but in art it’s like I learn to know “why I like it” not just “I like it” it like I have to go deeper. It really amazing it like they say “a picture has a 1000 words.”

Final Decision part 2 and an Mini Update

If you have read my last post on (Oh Decision Making This Major or That )
well I made my decision which would be either shocking for you or kind of knew this was coming.... I decided to be in the..... Art Major!!!!!!
I'm so excited yet little nervous because its a very huge change in my studies and how my life will become.
Oh an update with my job, I'm now a Sale Lead at my store aka the 4th Manager. I like my work just there's so much responsibility and can not skew it up, its retail so I have to multitask my manger duty, helping with clothes, keeping up with my associates, and helping costumers with whatever they need. If anyone ever in a job in their life I recommend working in either Restaurants and/or Retail, both teaches you about costumers services and same-time see how people act if your into people behavior especially when out in public. Trust me I had to deal with the worst now because I'm also Manger and if I'm the only one that's on duty (OMG) the its just insane. I rather be an associate that calls the manger over than being the manger dealing the dumb problems. LOL
Back to my new Art Major the classes I'll be taking this Fall Semester are: 2-D design and Art History 1, only taking two classes because of my manger hours at work (25-30hrs a week). I can't to purchase my Art History book and buy my art supplies for my 2-D design class, I wonder how its going to balance out with work, classes, and my own little social life. With my disability this is going to be an interesting challenge that I am go to go through, instead of textbooks and papers I am making Art. Its not difficult its just a huge change in "study habits"; I do know I'm going to be challenge with my creative imagination to make a piece of art work.
Now that I have everything set and ready, I have to create a Time-Managing schedule for myself in order to have time for my own social life because I want to have dinner and/or go out for drinks with friends as well be able to go to events like art show, music festival, concert, or a road trip to wherever. Lets not forget even down time for my self to refresh my mind and soul, especially if I ever get asked on a date by a guy, he'll like the fact I have my own life but I can make time for us to go on a date or even stay in for the night. Well that's if I was dating, I'm still single (unless otherwise because that's a whole other confusion I don't understand about this guy lol).
Meantime now I'm just trying to work,  get with friends when we can, and trying to relax my mind because in the 24th of Aug, is my First day back to school after not being in school for 8months.
also figuring out about myself, trying to understand the meaning of music I listen too, trying to make  little time to read the favorite classics. I'll be 24yrs old soon (in Dec 23rd) and I want to make sure I at least have this far of my together, be mature and still enjoy the fun.

so what's your update in life?
Are an Art Student? or Majored in Art?
What's it like being in Art?
What Major are you in or What Major did you earn?
Any Advice?

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Update: I had a very long Spring Break

Oh my goodness, its been to long since I wrote anything in this blog of mine. Well, I'm back *haha*
I have been extremely hustling and resting this Spring, you might be wondering, are you taking any classes? This semester (Spring Term) I was allowed to take any classes. What? Really? How?
Well I ended up getting suspended for this Spring semester because of my failing attempts that domino from when I transferred to the University last Spring till just this past Fall. I pasted a few of my classes however the main reason was my 1st Core class out the four I would need for my Bachelor program in Sociology, I couldn't past the class even on my second attempt.

I could blame the fact that I wasn't getting the help I requested due to the fact I have a learning disability, as well as my professor has an ego that we should be up to his standard of a college student. Another reason could be I was pushing myself hard enough however I didn't feel passionate to push myself to go outside the box of understanding/studying for my classes. I had that feeling "why am I do this, if I love something I would be making myself go crazy to understand and push my limits to show that I could this and the benefits of getting a grade.

Further more of the reason, I might of been to into the social environment, I before during my last summer for my A.A. classes, I made friend who enjoyed going to the nightlife. The different between her and I, She been the social party girl and knows how to balance that, work, and school; Me on the other hand, I never club nor gone to the bars before (I've only gone to club back in my freshmen year at my very old college but maybe 6 times of that year just to dance after an exam/birthday). I never gone to the local clubs here in the city or to the bars since I finally turned 21 at the time. Since the couple of times I gone out with her after the semester and especially during her birthday night (never drank a lot before also learned to never mix drink), We are still good friends till this day and I'm not blaming her for anything at all, I thank her though for introducing me to the city socialize people from Big Djs, model, owners, etc.. talk about social networking.
Since I transferred to UNF while she was still finishing getting her A.A I met a few people from the club and school, been going almost every club night or Bar night (no drinking) to keep the social. OMG, I got caught to being really social it insane, now I trying to make it a strict rule for myself: only go to the club when its a Birthday, GNO, or Performance; Bars on some weekends with friends that way we all can go when we all have a night/weekend off. Being 23 now, I not going to lie but I got to experience the 18 or 21 year life I couldn't get to enjoy. Not going to lie I learned a lot about socializing with people it was like a social experiment.

The last reason, I started working as well right when I transferred to UNF, I work at the bookstore on campus and later on promoter for the club just to get extra cash. I never had to work when I was getting my A.A. degree so I had time to focus in my classes. However, the classes I was taking were to difficult to study ( I have a very poor study habit since I left high school). The same time this is my first actual job, I had work before and got my paycheck but all I done was set up and take down, and keep score for the intermural sports at Stetson. Here at the bookstore, I never thought I could work casher, retail, online orders, as well textbooks all in one. Since I have been working I notice that it took time from my studies, plus the fact both school and work are a 1 hour commute from my house. Now that I am not taking a semester of classes I just work however, they cut hours so I only work 2days a week which is ridicules for a 1hr commute.

The suspension didn't go the way I thought, I had to fill out an appeal to get back in the program as well back to UNF, they denied me from the Sociology. :(

I already talk to a Career Counselor to help figure out a major that would be best for me. She was Amazing, I believe I mention all about this experiences in my last blog post. Anyways, she suggested Art Major, she took art as a major and her husband was in the same boat too, it was nice that someone who not only been on the same boat o what to major in but the fact her husband had a similar struggle with his major before changing to Art. She believe I could express more and why not have a major where all you do is color, draw, paint, and play around with ceramic. Well because I got denied from Sociology, my new Sociology felt bad and she wants be to have great college experience and finish happy and prove myself to a successful life, she knew I talked to the counselor about art she wanted me to Appeal back in for Art in the mean time I already met the Art Advisor and He believe this would be amazing for me, he helped me every way to make sure I get in.

I was told by my Career Counselor, I should go to the Career Fair to get a good experience in a Job opportunity, turned out the first only job that was really excited to want me was Aeropostale, I was shocked, and have also of thinking to do because I would have to leave my bookstore job for them. Same time I was concern about the appeal, so I had a back up plan, as always in order to hustle in my Life. I went to my college where I got my A.A. degree, to apply for the Management Bachelor degree. I still have more paperwork to turn in since I still live at home with my mom (talk about great benefits though).

Well I sent my Appeal and He email me back 2days later to say he was excited to tell me that I got accepted for the Art program. The great thing about taking art was I took drawing 1 class already for my A.A. elective class and I had so much fun and got a B+, I never thought m drawings would be graded that high. I am really nervous about this change in my life and having to realize that I'm 23 years old abut to become more adult to life. 

• Getting Accepted to the Fine Art major
• Got a job offer for Aeropostale
• Having Great close friends to be with and all are pressuring to reach for their career. No matter if they are married, far or near, they are the best supporters.

For now I'm still hustling everything before I have to let go of a lot of things and take dive in to the deep end. Goodbye 3ft deep pool, Hello 8ft deep pool. *Haha*

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From the Following Update of my Pervious Post

So from my pervious post on my update about how I was stressing out and wanted to change my degree and so on. Turns out the Career Counselor was no help at all, basically expressing the vibe to be that I must be very stubborn? Well, I had a sarcasm moment to my self-saying “That was helpful.” She was trying to grasp of what I’m into but I have way to much experience as well as what seemed to be interesting that I could do. Overall, the result was change your mange that could cause myself to stay in college longer or find a job before I could finish my degree and that might help me. With my disorder/disability makes it harder because I don’t if I can do it, that’s part of my stubbornness. After all the stressing, I still had no idea what to do. I told my mom all about it, she agrees that I’m way to stubborn and proud that I’m way to experience, but she believes that I could finish my degree with I high hopes. Well at this point no matter how much no one understands, I’m failing this one class I need to pass to move on in the degree program (sociology), I asked my advisor and he said I could still graduate in Fall 2015. So I explained that I might have to retake this class but I would have only two more classes and two more for the elective also one more for my minor. That brought my hopes up to know I almost done, however,  I still need: internships and a job that I could be happy about to work for right after I graduate even if involves moving.
That is another problem I am worried about, moving away for work and not know if I would still have friends and/or if they would support me on the move and still stay contact possible visit each other.
All I know is I really going to try even harder to make sure my degree comes before everything, and time management like I use to. I stopped because I wasn’t sure where and what to do with it in my room at home compare how I had it in the dorm at my freshmen pervious university.
Tonight (11/29), I just emailed my professor on the a paper I'm interested to do after the past week I could figure out what topic for the survey, so now I am going to clean my room. My mom is trying to do some Winter cleaning (Spring cleaning but during the Winter season), plus would help bring some peace in the house before the New Year.
My said I could rearrange my room because she has a gift for my room, so that means upgrade my room for a mature look, organize everything from closet to room, and clean out my room to be clean. So might help me distress and find a way to set up my study/ time management. That’s what I’m about to do, hopefully  I can get the answer from my professor telling me that I finally got it or I’m still going to so feel even more dumber.  

My College Update, Fall Term 2014!

Well, what a year I have been just stressing out back and forth, and having melt downs as well. For the first time my stress got to me so bad, I had a minor rash, horrible margin, mood swing, and noticing some grey hair (I'm only 22 years old about to turn 23yrs old in Dec 23rd.)
*mentioning of prayer is based on the religious belief my family and friends are in(Catholic/Christians),and same-time I also believe things happen for a reason. I respect and understand other beliefs, you can replace the meaning to what you practice/belief*

This Fall I had a exciting view for myself to finish all my classes with a passing grade and improve myself on the way to be more mature about my lifestyle, now that I'm working part-time and a quick cash side work as a club promoter.
Well everything was going okay, notice that the DRC (Disability Resource Center) could not get a hold of a note taker for me, which means I am screwed. Meanwhile I was had to try to study with what I could take notes of which was only what I could comprehend. I have this one class that's is the first class I need for my Major Degree Program in Sociology, However, I took this class back in the Spring Term 2014 and failed it. Now well lets just say I am in that same struggle boat.
Same Professor and everything, I study the best I could and well grade wise wasn't so well, but better than what I did back in Spring. I know I had a few faults because I procrastinated but also I couldn't comprehend what do to for most of the homework with my disability, and not having help with tutoring and paper revises like I had when I was in the State/Community College. I even applied for a note taker, unfortunately the school don't hire note taker like they did at the community college, they just ask if anyone in the class I am in if anyone wants to volunteer, which no ones would unless the disability of person could not take their own notes. Now because I know I have no hope in passing this class, my other classes are getting affected too. 
Its like just when I thought I had everything handled and settle, I somehow screwed up. My mom notice that I'm stressing out more and more has the time ticks down to almost finals. She worries that my health is getting affected from all the stress and trying what I can with my disability to pass just one class before other classes. She said she'll support me no matter what, thou she sacrifice to help finical with me, so I could finish college. I even have few friends and family as well as my mom to pray that something better would work out for me.
Well after so much stress and trying not to make the same mistake I done back in Stetson. After class today (November 24th, 2014), just before our Thanksgiving Break (which I still have class work to do, bummer), She asked how I was doing in class (the hardest that I have been stressing about,) I told her that I so done and stressed out about this I know my grade is a another fail. She was shock because not only this is her first semester as a transfer student but that the I had taken the class before and still no improvement. She said why stress on a major that your not achieving, I changed my major for next term after this class too, You should go check out the Career Center to help you. I went there last week because there is no way, I could use this major in something I know more about. I worked in the Hospitality business since I was 16 and I'm almost in my mid 30s because I worked to save up for college. I went in did this career interest test and talked about my skills and what I know as well what I would I like to learn more about to improve my passion/life. So they helped me change my major to _so and so__ since its similar to Hospitality Management but they don't have it as a major. Since you have very great social networking skills and you know more of what events going on in the city as well your working for a nightclub that had performs of famous musicians also you know most local musicians in the city and go to festivals/events. maybe they could help you find a career path towards that because again why Stress over something you stuck again when you can change for what you know and accomplish that faster and your grade/gpa would be exactly where you want. also you would want to study on it more because its want your interested not what you enjoy to read during your down time. Like I was into sociology major because of what I found interest during my down time but now I notice, I could major in what I'm already doing and still enjoy sociological article reading during my down time. Some people are great at their major because the already have the eye on what they want to be, rather like us it takes one stressed out class to make us realize oops.
Good Luck and let me know if they helped you out and what have you decided on.
After all the stressing, the crying, and sleepless nights I gone through; it suddenly hit me after what she said this might be the answer I have been needing. Right when we parted our ways, I went straight to the career center, set my appointment, and nervous as I was yet excited that this is the change I been needing. Hopefully this does solve my problem and could have my path to finish college with a degree and enjoy my life.
Beside other personal problems I am going through, I really praying and wanting this to be the sunlight to my horrible storm. If this works out for me and everything goes smoothly with the school, I decided to do some improvements to myself meaning I am going to be more mature about my lifestyle since I'll be 23yrs old in Dec 23rd. That means when Next Year hits and the new Spring term begins, I'm going to have to: manage my time better, know when to yes or no to things, if I have a question no matter how stupid I know I may sound ask or  ask during office hours( I was planning on doing but the hours were during my work and/or class hours), have time for myself (like go for a walk, read a non-class reading book, visit friends, have lunch/brunch with my mom/friends, or even a night out non club related like n the weekends. Speaking of nightclub promoting, they are very supportive that I'm in college and I only do their Wednesday and Friday night, which is no biggie because I can leave after guest list ends and find out if I get pay or not then leave. Still I would tell them the heads up so I don't have to wait in the back room till they get done with a meeting with whoever.
I will soon what I do want to improve myself since I am getting older because I need to grow up but I can be myself just 23yrs old. So stay tune for that and other post I will be posting soon.

Have you ever gone through anything like I have gone though? let me know down below in the comments.

Its been awhile update

Hey everyone

I have been really busy to have time to sit down and blog or even to vlog on my YouTube Channel. Every time I tried I ended up wanting to just sleep. I know it might sound like an excuse, but if your a busy person you'll under stand. Beside working at my campus bookstore temporary and taking summer class, I also got involved in promoting for a local night club. I promote for them cause I go there often and since I have been going since August 2013, I got to know people to where its somewhat like a family. Since last summer everything has been changing mostly on friends, and now its still changing by avoiding negative  people. Others are either in a relationship, married, having a baby, have kids, or just doing noting. Its interesting how other outside of my "circle" and/or not Facebook friends notice I either need more friends or new ones. I think they meant I need friends who are somewhat has equal as me. working, in college, around the same age group, and more social. Also not always in drama, that is a thing that annoys me. Its always about someone, besides bring up the person for examples of what went bad or good is different than having to get them to move on /cut them off your life. Last thing about drama are those who are so negative, ignorant, and very unmannered; I never been so annoyed or uncomfortable around anyone who is always so negative that just beyond what I could explain, and someone who always just have no manners again I could not explain.  Another  reason the "outsiders" meant is because I'm still single, its sometimes hard to hangout with friends in a relationship because your single and they have a different view of fun. especially when you never had any experience of the dating ever (like me). Oh, and so no focusing on guys right now, when time is right it would happen.

Beside people, I trying to focus more on my studies, lately Ive been to distracted from drama after drama. I might seem MIA (missing in action), to them and they might think I'm ignoring them but out of all of my friends, I'm in school. again not an excuse but its true. they only know me for a few months but anyone I've known for years even since childhood/toddler knows me so well. School comes before anyone, no matter how difficult it is for me especially with my disability/disorder, and how social I can be. I might like being in school due to some really bad experiences I have gone through that No One not even my friends or Family knows, well besides my mom. I just enjoy better when I learn on my own or if there is a teacher/professor who makes the learning very interesting almost has if just meant for you to understand rather than being negative or just plain boring.
Lately Ive been struggling, so know I trying on my own knowing how to focus more in my studies than what is going on around me, Yes I get that easily distracted but its not always self discipline that helps (that annoys me the most when someone says this to me when they don't  understand not everyone could, some has to take medicine however I don't want to take a pill).
I feel like and was suggested by "outsiders" if I could have some friends that are also working, studies and social similar to me, I could be well balanced and not have so much drama besides just knowing when is everyone's free-time haha. Moreover, on the age as well, I am 22 years old till December 23rd, but again age doesn't matter unless your going bars or clubs (some are 18+ but the ones your actually dress for are 21+ only). 
The Last thing out of All That, I am saving money so I could move out to the student housing because commuting everyday sometimes three times a day every week for an hour is a ridiculous when that where your money goes to the most and having to get food when your out and about because if I make lunch and put in my lunch box, well let me just say with this heat it either melted, soggy, or spoiled ( ewww).  however, I am watching what I am eating and trying to get time to hit the gym, even if it for 15- 30 mins of cardio.

Basically, I am Focusing on Myself. By getting more focus on what is important to me than having to worry about others drama (they could handle themselves), Just know how to balance everything, and care on my health.

Are you going through the same thing let me know down below in the comments, Facebook your comments, or reply on the tweet. have any tips, advice or just want to share what your going through as well is fine by me.

Do you Have a Tumblr?

Do you have Tumblr? if so you should follow me.
Link is on the side  under Follow me or >>>Click Here to Follow my Tumblr<<<

If not you should make one. People say Tumblr is stupid and its has to much nude, drugs, etc...
well it all depends on who you follow. plus some bloggers don't use Blog Spot they use Tumblr has their blog site. For me I use it to express a bit of my self by reblog images and words, but sometimes I use it to share random thoughts, tweets, very deep personal moments of my life or just personal thoughts, instagram pictures, random pictures I think are funny and/or very expressive.

I personal love Tumblr because I get to interact with random strangers and later become Tumblr friends and I also get to know more about their life by just scrolling through their blog. Most times you will be amazed by how random a stranger may be form you hometown or another student for your school. I got to message people from the two university I was applied to even though I already chosen one already but I still got to know them and found out their were also majoring in my major of interest, some were just other student from those campuses. Also There are other bloggers that are willing to answer your personal or random questions. I asked two different bloggers that do their on zodiac and I asked them for some advice based on my signs and others, kind of like a psychologist (their really are helpful, especially from a random outsider view). Another blogger I asked for some advice does fitness and diet, she lost so much weight and she was helpful when I asked her about her weight loss and how would my body change from clothes size to clothes size. (that's my issue). Most times I get random people asking me questions about my blog or about me (sometimes its a bit much).

Last thing I love about Tumblr is I also promote/advertise (freely) my friends site, blog, and/or even events. That way anyone going or interested in wanting know about who they are could check them out. few times I would see who else is going to any event I'm going to hopeful meet them and we could be come friends.
I done it for my close friend boyfriend and his friends/crew of their gig like when and where their performing (Mostly at Techno/House/Electronic Music Festivals). That way whoever is going to any of the festivals their preforming at could check them out.
I would also mention bands or other people/friends I have a good interaction with and share to everyone. Don't worry I will share them on here too.
I mention I was going to an event like EDC Orlando and I got to meet people that I have interacted with and we hung out.

There are many blogs on Tumblr to follow from Fitness, Religion, Fashion, Music, Personal, Sex, Funny Videos, Food, Makeup, Hair, Diet, etc...

If you don't have a Tumblr  >>> Click Here to Sign Up <<< to make one (if your interested in making one) and Its Free.
If you have one go to the top of this post and click on where I have it posted.

Celebrity look a like

 I didn't realize till I was listening to Lorde (Ella Maria Lani Yelich-O'Connor) who most hit song is Royals, that I looked like her.

I did a heat oil treatment to my hair yesterday evening cause it need some treatment for the damage and winter makes my hair dry. after the treatment I would let it air dry and let my natural wave/curls be. I normally don't like my hair like this since its humid here in Florida so its to much to keep control of my waves/curls. Unless I go to an event where my hair is curled by curler.

I like to define my eyebrows a bit during the fall and winter to give that seasonally look. plus its wont sweat off in the heat.

Im just wearing the usual:

 tinted moisturizer( depending on my skin or if I have something to do which today I have a meeting.)
upper lid waterline with the eyeliner pencil,

mascara upper lashes,

define my eyebrows (season),

and because I have to go to a meeting I add a hint of gold light shimmer and brown matte eye shadows.

 

"You Can Call me Queen Bee"

 

Im Back with Videos

I know its been forever I have videos that I finally edited. There all from Vine.
Hope you can enjoy.

 

 



Good Day, Everyone! :) (Update)

Hello everyone, how is or was your day?

I'm know its been forever that I've posted any blog on here. Got so caught up with my stuff that I forgot I had a blog. lol

Anyways i just want to share an update about what I've been going through.

keys: *I'll blog more about this later.

1. Got a New Phone: I got it because my old one got mess up and I could only call/talk to people by having it on speaker. (its bothers me cause I can't have a convo with my mom while it echos throughout Walmart.) lol Its also my Belated 21st Birthday gift.
   with my new phone is now a smart phone so I could finally do Instagram, since I always end up wanting to take pictures but I would always forget my camera.
2. Got a new Handbag: I saved up some money for other things but I really wanted was a new Handbag. I'm not a huge handbag shopping fan, I'm more simple and that could have my stuff organized and mostly comfortable. It took me forever to find one that fits my style and I though to start small too since I just need it to carry my wallet, cell phone, and other small things I would need through out the day.
   I saw this really cute handbag for not bad price. Its a perfect bag to start for me and its cute and simple the way I like it. here is the handbag I got Key-Per mini crossbody with birds.
3. Been so caught up with school that I haven't had time to hangout with friends. at this point I starting to to realize who my friends are by how they treat me when we're not together. otherwise most of them are married, have kids, have kids with their with/out their partner, or their dating/engaged to their partner and not want to hang out with cause I'm single. *
4. My eat habit is starting slow but I've been eating healthy more lately. Just need to put time for gym/workout to burn fat. Oh and been drinking more like Fish on Land. lol *
5. Speaking of eating healthy I notice my complexion on my face is not so blemished and pimpled. although I still have them from stress so that's seems like an improvement in my book. Of course my main rule to self is wash my face every day and night, and/or in between like after gym, swim,beach, after school before hangout with friends, etc... *
6. My hair is getting longer with this new shampoo/conditioner I started using when it came out and I'm in love. however their was a "new" shampoo/conditioner that relounged since it was discontinued when I was little. I used to use it and Loved how it helped my Long Hair then BAM discontinued. now the relounged with and its without silicone and I thought it would be the same as before. Sad news is its not the same and made my hair feel dried and straw/hay like. So I'm going back to the shampoo/conditioner that I started using. *
7. Fashion well Still haven't been shopping which kinda sad for girls then again I'm saving money, trying to lose weight cause nothing is fitting, and well to be honest no time to shop and no one to go with. lol*
8. Pampering myself is my life sadly and omg I can't believe that I'm going to admit this but I haven't gotten a mani/pedi for a long time. I only done maybe three times on my own. still not the same when having it done from a salon. thou its has its pro and con. *
9. Another pampering I'm still working on is improving on my makeup skills (Now girls you know we have our way of doing make up "togo/comfort way of how we do to our self) However, I want to make it look more sophisticated and not like a 7th grade who is still learning about how to but makeup on. Also exploring what look suits me like the cat eye, red lips, bronzer, blush, etc...*
10. Last about Pampering is hair styling I know I mention about my hair in number 6 but this is about the styling and I'm trying to trying  more ways for my hair to look uhmm good. like I'm not expert with styling my hair I feel like its horrible and never looks good. Most girls have their signature style hair in other words their goto style/comfort style. *
11. From Fashion number 7, I still trying to figure my goto/comfort signature style of fashion. Like I'm really open to style just its nice when a girl has a signature style like STATEMENT item from a piece of jewelry, hair style, hair piece, shoes, etc... I want to make it where it says Me from how my mood, music, the kinda day.*
12. Last is Music I'm so beyond forgot where I stand in music I love music I listen to all kind of music. I used to sing and play instruments like piano, guitar, violin, and flute. Now I forgot how to read and play music, my voice is way beyond out of tune to sing ( I sound like "that karaoke singer" at least I'm honest) Thank God I have friends that knew where I stood in music and are willing to help me go back to knowledge of music. its back to music 101 yay.*
13. Omg forgot to mention one thing is I'm so pale since I've been out in the sun for like ever because of college. I normal light to soft tan growing up but since I let to college I've got so Pale that my Dr thought I was going through another anemic (iron deficiency) which caused me before go pale. so this summer even through I have classes I made time for BEACH/TANNING. yay!*
14. Trying to Save more Money for me to have for future upcoming. like concerts, going on road trip, a NEW CAR, etc... since I don't work yet cause I'm in college I get paid for being in school and with my disorder and personal challenge its still hard for me to balance work and school. cause if I lose focus with school I'll fail and failing is not my goal. *
15. As far for Love Life, still single and really would be nice to have a boyfriend since everyone is in the Love life Pool. but I'm in no hurry (not desperate) since I figure that with all the things I'm going through I lose focus even thou I kinda do when I talk to this guy. lol *

So that's about it sorry I finished this late but can't wait to blog more. Hope you enjoyed this don't forget to follow me on Twitter, Tumblr, Facebook Like Page, Pinterest, YouTube, and this Blog.  You find the links to these on the upper right hand side of this blog under my profile. Thanks for reading.
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Hair Idea Help!

I need help deciding for my hair. I thought about lighting my hair with lemon spray that I have. It would be a drastic blonde but it would look like a surfer girl hair. I've done it before in the summer for my freshmen year of college back at Stetson and got complements, however they never met me before when I had my hair natural without the "lighten" color. I can't dye my hair because I'm pretty sensitive to the chemical. (My hair line fell out from just having a relaxer (cause I want to have straight hair not a perm)). Anyways I remember that I've heard girls/guys would use natural stuff to help darken and or lighten hair. Use coffee for darkening (works btw is you have brown hair thou) and lemon juice and peroxide to lighten any color hair. However I use this spray to help lighten faster beside using lemon juice and peroxide. Sun-In Hair spray  for the fast color for touch up till I get the color. But later I use the lemon juice and peroxide to once in the while touch up.
I start by using the blow dyer to help get the color and for touch ups. However when I do go to the beach then I spray wear I want it and while I tan. before I had it in the summer has an ombre so I would use a ponytail to guide me where I want the color, later for school I sparyed the top layer from roots to tip so it look like an ombre from root to tip.
For Shampoo I use Mane 'n Tail Love this product. later I used Herbal essences for Long Hair Care. I used both to help grow out my hair after having my cut short for senior picture.(was the saddest day of my life)
I never realize I shoud of use color protection shampoo. My friend Love to color his hair and he even use the lemon juice peroxide lightening. He said the trick to keep the color from fading fast is use the color hair shampoo.
here are some that works. (btw I use my moms shampoo sometimes cause they smell and works wonder then the ones I use for long hair.
Herbal essences Color Treated Hair
Garnier COLOR SHIELD Btw Im using this right now smells good and make my non color hair feel soft.

This Shampoo is My favorite for the shine and smell but its out of stock in store but you can order it online unless you have it at your store. I used this in the summers for years but I wished the keeped it in stores when I was lightening my hair
Aussie You Can Shine.

Now  my hair is grown out (still growing it out to make it longer), and its pretty healthy and only had two hair cuts(trims) in the last three years. Beside diet for my body and hiar I would say by grading my hair would be a solid B- of how healthy it is.
This is my last semester of college from Florida State College of Jacksonville and I'll be getting my A.A. degree but I still have to take summer term for my prereps class before I tranfer to another University (not going back to Stetson).
I thought I would like to have a New School Look before I start in the Fall.
However, I'm unsure if I should start the processes now or doing the summer where I might have more beach time chances.
You can help me by voting down below and then comment me if I should start Now(March) or in the Summer(May).

I was wondering if I should lighten my hair like I've done before. Comment below if I should do it for spring or summer.
	Yes, Top layer
	Yes, Ombre
	Yes, Just the end/tips
	Yes, Highlight style
	No, Keep it natural
pollcode.com free polls

Also I have this poll vote on my facebook Like page. I'll post a before and after picture plus a video of How I do it. If you have any tips please don't be afraid to comment below or to my facebook  like page.

Update: Lets party like it's 2013!

I'm back here is a video I made just for yall! :)

The End of the World! ❄Vlogmas 21, 2012 ❄

Eh day: another blah

Sept 30th, 2012
Today is one of those days for me where I don't feel like dressing up(which I have like nothing nice cause it has been awhile since I shopped for clothes) plus gained weight from stressing with school, and I just look like I just rolled out of bed and didn't make an effort to look somewhat good. Been feeling tired and just want things to get over, so I could enjoy the fun stuff I want to do like: join a sport team, travel, while traveling do crazy things like surf with the locals( still learning how to properly surf), scuba dive, hiking, kayak, ski/snowboarding, etc...
I know that school is really important for me, but I just wanna get it over with. I like school not going to lie I just hate it the system. I like to learn and makes me feel more knowledge and whats more interesting is talking to others and hearing and learning from their opinion. I can't stand learning from a book of one author (not books you read for pleasure) more like school books. it's one person opinion and i feel like that's the ONLY truth that we have to know. However, when you look at other authors with the same subject its like a pro and cons, and you would have many opinion of the subject.

I'm Alive

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June Favorites

Summer is Here. I know its July already but I have some more favorites and its for the month of June. Here are some things I used.
*note: when you this sign (~) its means Video. once I get a fix/new laptop, I am going to share/show what the products are.
*note: I'm not promoting for any of these product, and I bought them with my own $Money$.


Lets get started:

 My cute new Piggy Bank. Its so me:) I love this and yes I put change in there (exepct for Qauters). Saving for whatever when its full. btw got this at Target.



 Must have. its smells yummy and its last allday even sweat/heat. perfect for school.

This is Water. if you watch Real HouseWives of New Jersey, your'll know why. (~)

I'm a picky person, but I heard this is really good. After having my own sample I drank the whole bottle. yummy and healthy. 

Finally got mine and LOVE IT! got mine from Ultra. my face has change from using your hands to using a brush.  (~)

 My summer hair product. Love Aussie. its going okay but i think my hair needs for a trim.



 My #1 perfume for 3years running. {I got so many complinments, and even from random smexy guys  ;) }  (~)



 Its summer and this sheet is a LIFESAVER. Musthave if you tend to have oily skin or even to much shine.(~)



its so Yummy and Healty best snack to have between class or car to somewhere.

A place where All Women can Stalk.

The Logo of the blog site.

          So the Title says it all there is a place where All Women can Stalk is a Site for Women (men can go on it too but its mostly for Women.) its call All Women Stalk, its a site that has Many Tips, Advices, and Infos blogs about anything from Diet, Beauty, Love, Travel,Wedding, Fashion, Parenting etc... I go on it during my free time. Love it. Plus its not just one woman who typed and post all the blogs, its multiple women. Yes, men can go on this site it might seem akward but they have a few tips and advice for men too.
           So during your Free time or when you get bored of Pinterest you should check this site out. You would be Wowed by the blogs, its like having Girls talk with friends, mom, grandma, etc about everything. The Weightloss, Makeup, and Motivation advice helps me and so far its helping and making me feel very happy. =)

From the Top:Pictures are examples one tip from way to do a spontaneous proposals,
the middle is a motivation qoute for exercising, and
the last picture is from the Makeup tips on Lipstick.

       Here the site just click on it, All Women Stalk. Enjoy, =) Let me down in the Comments below

What's your Favorite Site? or What's your favorite blog?

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