My College Update, Fall Term 2014!

Well, what a year I have been just stressing out back and forth, and having melt downs as well. For the first time my stress got to me so bad, I had a minor rash, horrible margin, mood swing, and noticing some grey hair (I'm only 22 years old about to turn 23yrs old in Dec 23rd.)
*mentioning of prayer is based on the religious belief my family and friends are in(Catholic/Christians),and same-time I also believe things happen for a reason. I respect and understand other beliefs, you can replace the meaning to what you practice/belief*

This Fall I had a exciting view for myself to finish all my classes with a passing grade and improve myself on the way to be more mature about my lifestyle, now that I'm working part-time and a quick cash side work as a club promoter.
Well everything was going okay, notice that the DRC (Disability Resource Center) could not get a hold of a note taker for me, which means I am screwed. Meanwhile I was had to try to study with what I could take notes of which was only what I could comprehend. I have this one class that's is the first class I need for my Major Degree Program in Sociology, However, I took this class back in the Spring Term 2014 and failed it. Now well lets just say I am in that same struggle boat.
Same Professor and everything, I study the best I could and well grade wise wasn't so well, but better than what I did back in Spring. I know I had a few faults because I procrastinated but also I couldn't comprehend what do to for most of the homework with my disability, and not having help with tutoring and paper revises like I had when I was in the State/Community College. I even applied for a note taker, unfortunately the school don't hire note taker like they did at the community college, they just ask if anyone in the class I am in if anyone wants to volunteer, which no ones would unless the disability of person could not take their own notes. Now because I know I have no hope in passing this class, my other classes are getting affected too. 
Its like just when I thought I had everything handled and settle, I somehow screwed up. My mom notice that I'm stressing out more and more has the time ticks down to almost finals. She worries that my health is getting affected from all the stress and trying what I can with my disability to pass just one class before other classes. She said she'll support me no matter what, thou she sacrifice to help finical with me, so I could finish college. I even have few friends and family as well as my mom to pray that something better would work out for me.
Well after so much stress and trying not to make the same mistake I done back in Stetson. After class today (November 24th, 2014), just before our Thanksgiving Break (which I still have class work to do, bummer), She asked how I was doing in class (the hardest that I have been stressing about,) I told her that I so done and stressed out about this I know my grade is a another fail. She was shock because not only this is her first semester as a transfer student but that the I had taken the class before and still no improvement. She said why stress on a major that your not achieving, I changed my major for next term after this class too, You should go check out the Career Center to help you. I went there last week because there is no way, I could use this major in something I know more about. I worked in the Hospitality business since I was 16 and I'm almost in my mid 30s because I worked to save up for college. I went in did this career interest test and talked about my skills and what I know as well what I would I like to learn more about to improve my passion/life. So they helped me change my major to _so and so__ since its similar to Hospitality Management but they don't have it as a major. Since you have very great social networking skills and you know more of what events going on in the city as well your working for a nightclub that had performs of famous musicians also you know most local musicians in the city and go to festivals/events. maybe they could help you find a career path towards that because again why Stress over something you stuck again when you can change for what you know and accomplish that faster and your grade/gpa would be exactly where you want. also you would want to study on it more because its want your interested not what you enjoy to read during your down time. Like I was into sociology major because of what I found interest during my down time but now I notice, I could major in what I'm already doing and still enjoy sociological article reading during my down time. Some people are great at their major because the already have the eye on what they want to be, rather like us it takes one stressed out class to make us realize oops.
Good Luck and let me know if they helped you out and what have you decided on.
After all the stressing, the crying, and sleepless nights I gone through; it suddenly hit me after what she said this might be the answer I have been needing. Right when we parted our ways, I went straight to the career center, set my appointment, and nervous as I was yet excited that this is the change I been needing. Hopefully this does solve my problem and could have my path to finish college with a degree and enjoy my life.
Beside other personal problems I am going through, I really praying and wanting this to be the sunlight to my horrible storm. If this works out for me and everything goes smoothly with the school, I decided to do some improvements to myself meaning I am going to be more mature about my lifestyle since I'll be 23yrs old in Dec 23rd. That means when Next Year hits and the new Spring term begins, I'm going to have to: manage my time better, know when to yes or no to things, if I have a question no matter how stupid I know I may sound ask or  ask during office hours( I was planning on doing but the hours were during my work and/or class hours), have time for myself (like go for a walk, read a non-class reading book, visit friends, have lunch/brunch with my mom/friends, or even a night out non club related like n the weekends. Speaking of nightclub promoting, they are very supportive that I'm in college and I only do their Wednesday and Friday night, which is no biggie because I can leave after guest list ends and find out if I get pay or not then leave. Still I would tell them the heads up so I don't have to wait in the back room till they get done with a meeting with whoever.
I will soon what I do want to improve myself since I am getting older because I need to grow up but I can be myself just 23yrs old. So stay tune for that and other post I will be posting soon.

Have you ever gone through anything like I have gone though? let me know down below in the comments.

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NFL Women's Purse Rule

Speaking of Football season. NFL as a new rule for women's purse. It as to be the size of a cellphone to get the stadium. Uhmm and they why the ticket sales are low. Now I would to go the game but I need my purse to carry my wallet, lipbalm, mini sunscreen, handsanitizer, feminine products, and inhaler.
I understand they don't want ladies carrying in huge bags like its a damn carry on.
Unless they have kids and need to carry dippers. Again don't it to be huge like your going on a 30day trip.
if they change the size to where we could it small but big enough to carry the things we need. They might as well sell purses just for us to take to the game.
They also say it has to be see though. F*¢k that! That cross the line since they already have to inspect inside.

What do you think about this new purse rule?
At least other sports don't have this issue, or do they? What are rules you know from you experience going to see a sports game?

I am a Princess

I am a princess. 

   I am brave sometimes

I am scared sometimes 

 Sometimes I am brave even when I’m scared.

I believe in loyalty and trust 

 I believe loyalty is built on trust.

I try to be kind 

 I try to be generous

 I am kind even when others are not so generous. 

 

I am a princess.

I think standing up for myself is important

I think standing up for others is more important

But standing with others is more important. 

 

I am a princess.

I believe compassion makes me strong

Kindness is power

And family is the tightest bond of all.

I have heard I am beautiful. 

 I know I am strong.

 

I am a princess.

Long may I reign.

~ Disney
 

**After all these years they finally made a "I am a Princess" poem. Here is the poem that I lived by everyday since I was a little girl.** Don't judge me.

Disney Princess Poem

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Cinderella walked on broken glass.

 Sleeping Beauty let a whole lifetime pass.

 Belle fell in love with a hideous beast.

 Jasmine married a common thief.

 Ariel walked on land for love and life.

 Snow White barely escaped a knife.

 It was all about blood, sweat, and tears,
Because love means facing your biggest fears.

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Good Day, Everyone! :) (Update)

Hello everyone, how is or was your day?

I'm know its been forever that I've posted any blog on here. Got so caught up with my stuff that I forgot I had a blog. lol

Anyways i just want to share an update about what I've been going through.

keys: *I'll blog more about this later.

1. Got a New Phone: I got it because my old one got mess up and I could only call/talk to people by having it on speaker. (its bothers me cause I can't have a convo with my mom while it echos throughout Walmart.) lol Its also my Belated 21st Birthday gift.
   with my new phone is now a smart phone so I could finally do Instagram, since I always end up wanting to take pictures but I would always forget my camera.
2. Got a new Handbag: I saved up some money for other things but I really wanted was a new Handbag. I'm not a huge handbag shopping fan, I'm more simple and that could have my stuff organized and mostly comfortable. It took me forever to find one that fits my style and I though to start small too since I just need it to carry my wallet, cell phone, and other small things I would need through out the day.
   I saw this really cute handbag for not bad price. Its a perfect bag to start for me and its cute and simple the way I like it. here is the handbag I got Key-Per mini crossbody with birds.
3. Been so caught up with school that I haven't had time to hangout with friends. at this point I starting to to realize who my friends are by how they treat me when we're not together. otherwise most of them are married, have kids, have kids with their with/out their partner, or their dating/engaged to their partner and not want to hang out with cause I'm single. *
4. My eat habit is starting slow but I've been eating healthy more lately. Just need to put time for gym/workout to burn fat. Oh and been drinking more like Fish on Land. lol *
5. Speaking of eating healthy I notice my complexion on my face is not so blemished and pimpled. although I still have them from stress so that's seems like an improvement in my book. Of course my main rule to self is wash my face every day and night, and/or in between like after gym, swim,beach, after school before hangout with friends, etc... *
6. My hair is getting longer with this new shampoo/conditioner I started using when it came out and I'm in love. however their was a "new" shampoo/conditioner that relounged since it was discontinued when I was little. I used to use it and Loved how it helped my Long Hair then BAM discontinued. now the relounged with and its without silicone and I thought it would be the same as before. Sad news is its not the same and made my hair feel dried and straw/hay like. So I'm going back to the shampoo/conditioner that I started using. *
7. Fashion well Still haven't been shopping which kinda sad for girls then again I'm saving money, trying to lose weight cause nothing is fitting, and well to be honest no time to shop and no one to go with. lol*
8. Pampering myself is my life sadly and omg I can't believe that I'm going to admit this but I haven't gotten a mani/pedi for a long time. I only done maybe three times on my own. still not the same when having it done from a salon. thou its has its pro and con. *
9. Another pampering I'm still working on is improving on my makeup skills (Now girls you know we have our way of doing make up "togo/comfort way of how we do to our self) However, I want to make it look more sophisticated and not like a 7th grade who is still learning about how to but makeup on. Also exploring what look suits me like the cat eye, red lips, bronzer, blush, etc...*
10. Last about Pampering is hair styling I know I mention about my hair in number 6 but this is about the styling and I'm trying to trying  more ways for my hair to look uhmm good. like I'm not expert with styling my hair I feel like its horrible and never looks good. Most girls have their signature style hair in other words their goto style/comfort style. *
11. From Fashion number 7, I still trying to figure my goto/comfort signature style of fashion. Like I'm really open to style just its nice when a girl has a signature style like STATEMENT item from a piece of jewelry, hair style, hair piece, shoes, etc... I want to make it where it says Me from how my mood, music, the kinda day.*
12. Last is Music I'm so beyond forgot where I stand in music I love music I listen to all kind of music. I used to sing and play instruments like piano, guitar, violin, and flute. Now I forgot how to read and play music, my voice is way beyond out of tune to sing ( I sound like "that karaoke singer" at least I'm honest) Thank God I have friends that knew where I stood in music and are willing to help me go back to knowledge of music. its back to music 101 yay.*
13. Omg forgot to mention one thing is I'm so pale since I've been out in the sun for like ever because of college. I normal light to soft tan growing up but since I let to college I've got so Pale that my Dr thought I was going through another anemic (iron deficiency) which caused me before go pale. so this summer even through I have classes I made time for BEACH/TANNING. yay!*
14. Trying to Save more Money for me to have for future upcoming. like concerts, going on road trip, a NEW CAR, etc... since I don't work yet cause I'm in college I get paid for being in school and with my disorder and personal challenge its still hard for me to balance work and school. cause if I lose focus with school I'll fail and failing is not my goal. *
15. As far for Love Life, still single and really would be nice to have a boyfriend since everyone is in the Love life Pool. but I'm in no hurry (not desperate) since I figure that with all the things I'm going through I lose focus even thou I kinda do when I talk to this guy. lol *

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25 Facts About Me

1.       I use to think I was Half Cat because my mom LOVES Cats, so I would pretend to be a cat myself. For example:  I would meow, lick milk out of the bowl, do “cat gymnastics”,  take cat naps (sleep in class) at school ( I never got caught), and find small places to hind when playing hiding go seek. 

2.       I love the beach so much I wish I could live closer than I do now. I love everything of the beach from sunrise/sunset, the sound of the waves, the feeling of the sands between my toes, how much fun you can have and get in shape, and getting tan (which I need to get Tan pronto).

3.       When I feel comfortable around you, you will probably think I am a complete weirdo. Being Weird is okay, right?

4.       I can appear quite shy and less talkative when I first meet people, but very quickly warm up and quite a talker.

5.       I am a really picky eater and stick to what I know and love. However, willing to try something new.

6.       I have a condition that affects my eating meaning I seriously have to watch what I eat.

7.       I used to do Swimming (4yrs), Pole vaulting (1yr), Weight Lifting (1yr), Power Puff football (2yrs), and Show choir(1yr) in High school.

8.        I was in chorus since kindergarten till my senior of high school.

9.       I danced(ballet, jazz, tap, hip hop, modern, ponite) since kindergarten till my freshmen year of high school.

10.   I used take karate since I was in 3^rd grade till my freshmen year of high school. (I got my 4^th degree black belt, I even taught class for training). Btw I’m not a fighter. ;)

11.   I’ve been in Girl Scouts since kindergarten till my senior year of high school. I got my Gold Award, and became a lifetime member. I was thinking about being a leader/assistant leader someday.

12.   The smell of pickles makes me gag/want to throw up and don't even get me started on what they taste like... plus don’t you ever kiss/make out with me after you ate a pickle. Pickle breathes are as worse too…

13.   I sing all the time when I'm alone but would never properly sing in front of anyone. I might sound like a drunk singer on karaoke night. lol

14.   I sometime cry myself to sleep

15.   I feel like my past is haunting me like a nightmare.

16.   I like quotes here are a few of my favorite:

a.       "Psalm 23"

b.      "People think I'm odd. So I know how it feels to be different, and I know how lonely that can be." ~ Belle

c.       "I'm a sensitive soul though I seem thick-skinned, and it hurts that my friends never stood downwind." ~ Pumba

d.      "What do you do when things go wrong? Oh! You sing a song!" ~ Snow White

e.      "Being called the nice girl, is way better then being called a bitch." - Lauren Conrad

f.        "Humor is mankind's greatest blessing." - Mark Twain

17.   I like to read books even though it’s a struggle with my dyslexia but I use to go to the library for hours reading books. I dreamed since I was little that I’m going to have my own huge bookshelves of books in my house. Like in beast castle in Beauty and the Beast.

18.   My favorite dark stories are written by no other then Edgar Allan Poe. My favorite story is The Tell Tale Heart.

19.   I use to be scared of “scary” movies.  Now when I watch them I tell myself its not real (even the ones subtitle saying "based on a true story").  thou I still get jumpy/scaried when I'm home alone or driving alone at night.

20.   My favorite Color is Blue (teal), 2^nd favorite shocking its Pink(coral).

21.   I love ice creams, sherbets, and frozen yogurts.

22.   Have not seen any of Nicholas Sparks movies nor read the books. To me their all the same teary sad stories of love and death.

23.   I would love to travel the World (especially with someone special ;) )

24.    I use to bake Cake (from the box) all the time since I was 6yrs old till I left for college.

25. I like to make faces. (it helps make people laugh and myself too)

Coming soon/update

        My laptop wasn't working very well, but instead of buying a new laptop (which I would get when I tranfer to College). I decieded to restarted my laptop back its manufacting setting and startover. its better now, but still needs some time to get started. Also I have finals this week and I planned to do some vlogs, blogs, and random videos after I finsh my finals. I would have time to hang with some friends since rest are still in highschool they start this week. I have plans for videos I want to do including back to school, the only down side is I won't be able to do outfits because I haven't been shopping because I been gaining weight. I still behind on my weight loss plan. which its just because i want to be skinny, its because I want to be healthy and active. the other day my friends and I went to the beach and later hit the pool and I haven't swimmed in a pool for a long time since maybe 1-2 yrs ago. After just swimming half a lap, I start to feel out of breath and very slow swimmer. So yea I just want to say whats up with an update.

and for those who are already started or starting school have a great back to school week.

What in the name of Food?

    

a person: Why going for gay right when your a Catholic, Bonita?

Me:   I'm unique. I respect them as they respect me. I'm rare in my family. but that just me. I love anyone no matter what gender, race, believes. I learn that they are like us but different ways of wanting sex. if you notice animals do they the same and God still love them. we are about same percent related to animals especially on how the mate. why hate those who are different rather then focusing on how to cure those who are ill? yes there must me a balance of good and bad based on the philosophy of life, but nothing say the gay rights is bad and evil. about 40-70%* of gay happen because of an abused family from their father, brother, friends, or stranger, and the rest is in their gene. that is why I respect them. most I know are so nice and good the will one day be forgiven and earn their wings. 75%* of LBGT are super nice and sweet, the rest might not know how to control what happened and cause trouble. we "non gays" are the same. I do also think that why hate the gay rights when those who hate rather have a threesome? if hate gay why have threesomes? oh because some are afraid of what their peers would say if they found out. Instead of making more money by saying anti-gay your ll be more God children to help raise money for the poor, homeless, and/or those homes in America that got damaged. McD's is not a Christan but they give money to the Children that are sick. besides some people are allergic to peanut and cant eat at Chick-fli-a because of their peanut oil. that is my view on this. all for money.
In our past we had some history.

for more information about what i was talked about just go to your website and type in Chick-fil-a anti-gay.

*not exact percentage*

Here are some pictures I got on my Facebook about Chick-fli-a

Did you know that its
legal in 6 out of 50 states for gay marriage
legal in 17 out of 50 and DC for Medical Marijuana
legal in 23 out of 50 states for having sex with a horse
legal in 36 out of 50 states allow marriage with your cousin


*was not paid to talk about this subject.
* not promoting.
*just expressing my point of view.

OMG! Who wants to be like Barbie?

Since Barbie dolls came out way back in the days, it was to inspire girls to be who they want to be when they grow up. right? Well I remember I had and played with Barbies. ask anyone its true. now i realize when i got older that in someway she suppose to be inspiring to be anyone like a doctor, a teacher, a race car driver,a model, a singer, a mermaid, a princess, etc...

Suddenly I realize when girls hit a certin age (during puberty) they want to change what they dislike/hate about them self. like for example: boobs are to small, no butt, nose job, tummy tuck, etc...

Beside abusive lifestyle some studies says that most girls get this idea from their Barbie doll because everyguy want an All-American Girl or to be Beautiful like a model (Blonde, tall, perfect body,etc)

However, I found these picture to show what i mean



Barbie the Doll



 



This is want it would take to be "just like" Barbie.
She just a model.





This Girl did a project for Anorexia Awareness Month .She made a life like model of how Barbie would be in real life.
Creepy right?



Here are Real Facts about Barbie I got from Wik.

 If Barbie were an actual women:

she would be 5'9" tall, have a 39" bust, an 18" waist, 33" hips

 and a size 3 shoe.
• Barbie calls this a "full figure" and likes her weight at 110 lbs.
• At 5'9" tall and weighing 110 lbs, Barbie would have a BMI of 16.24 and fit the weight criteria for anorexia. She likely would not menstruate.
• If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all fours due to her proportions.
• Slumber Party Barbie was introduced in 1965 and came with a bathroom scale permanently set at 110 lbs with a book entitled "How to Lose Weight" with directions inside stating simply "Don't eat."

BTW This are true facts I got-- no joke. So think twice when buying one for some one you know, or even talk to them that barbie might like a role model but be "just like" her wont make you happy.

Here is my Mesurment

5'9 1/2"

170

curvy hips but a slight narrow

pretty adverage chest size

Love to EAT! lol

small butt

broken nose

Big hands

size 9/10 shoes

pants size 8/9 - 11/12 (depending the style of pants)

Med shirt (sometime i like large if its a flowy shirt)

So yea i think im normal and loven it.

beside Barbie cant keep a relationship with Ken anyways. always on off and she even dated an Aussie ken.