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My life is so busy even thou i just go to school. Its hard for me to keep up with school so i spen more time with school work then anything. My life is different but probaly the same to someone. for example 1out 200,000 (im not sure if this is true, i just made this up) anyways beside school i worry about everything my mom health, knowning and trying to get threw family problems, staying in touch with friends etc. i try not to just my emotions playing it cool and having a smile on my face. its hard enough when your mom had a brain surgey and her mind is different then before, famiy trying to saty in touch, having hard time getting things with this tough economy, etc. for one person like even at the age of 19 about to be 20 soon in almost 1 month is hard, im still like a kid but going through things that maybe 1 out of 6 person goes through. not only im focus in school, and trying to mange the family. im also looking after my health. i gain 45lbs after i was at the age of 17. i feel my emotions are going towards depressions. im not eatting right. my mom is scared and my teachers are noticing im look tired and depressed.
im trying to eat healthy-- i love eating healthy--its just i keep eatung out like going to McDs alot only for lunch when i have lunch break in between classes. I spend money more on food then shopping.
how sad.=(.
Im miss shopping, however, since i gian weight i cant buy clothes that i wanted and in my "normal size". so far im just wearing tshirts, same jeans, and only cute tops that fits. i remember going to my Dr. she said, my main problem is working out to burn calories. over all my stomach is in an okay size, just have to watch out for spicey food. I have acid reflex so if i eat something like pizza, or spicey food, i could get a bad stomach ache and cause myself a heartburn( it hurts like hell. like someone lit a fire in your heart). thats no problem i could manage to go around that. my problem is having healthy veggies, and fruit at my house. we have them but i still dont know why i dont go and grab them. i tend eat veggies and fruits when i else where. I am so werid. im also very picky its werid im might make a video about it cause if i type it its going to be a 16 chapter book. lol
I know i can a little bit lazy but i cant stand it if im lazy. is that normal? i love riding bikes better then goingt to the gym to ride the bikes there. however my bike is not working now. i think the heat melted the air tube or something cause i wanted to going ride it the other day and the tires are flat. wtf? but when we had that crazy heat over the summer i think that was cause it to be flat.
however, i want to keep that bike for when i go trail riding oneday cause i want to buy a hybrid bike, i was scared of those bike beacuse its so thin but they are just like a mountain bike and cross country bike. a hybid bike is those bike you see when people are riding pass you on the road, you see almost the same bike on the tour de france, and even "green" people ride to commute to places. thats the kind of bike i want to kinda commute to place. i kinda live in the middle of nowhere but i would like to take it with me to like a beach, sight seeing, etc.
im trying to make my self to go to the gym but it gets boring to me. plus i rather be playing outside with a soccer ball, or swimming etc.. but if only i had a workout buddy to help me push my limits in the gym.
last year i was the gym and i ran into a friend of mine and she help me in oneday. OMG my body ache the next day but i notice i looked so good.(that just one day of workout).
i even have workout dvds but for somereason i always laugh and feel like im making a fool of myself even thou i alone doing it in my house. lol weird right? My mom as a 80's/90's workout video that she used to get back in shape after she had me. My mom before marrige she was a size 00-2 and after she had me she was a size 00-2 agian. but now after her brain tumor surgrey and its also her 7year since that day. so happy to have her alive and okay. the only thing she feels like she 60yrs old, she gain alot of weight. ='( and she not the same with multitasking everything but im glad she still mange to remember everything.
well the video is REALLY good. she said at that time in the 80's/90's people were really into workouts.
the video was so easy and you feel it unlike the videos now it takes months to get that feeling/notcing the differances in your body.
now in school im trying to do my work in time iwas doing great till i went to an event i had to attend for the weekend and now im catched up but i still have to go back and redo mistakes. im glad my professors understand me. by talking to them and telling them im trying to pass the class, and get thourgh my learning disoder they gave me some tips to get through.
so thats why i haven't been blogging, vlogging, and everything. so sorry.
but still follow me on my youtube channel, twitter, here and soon a facebook page. =)
love always with peace,
Bonita =)
