Well, what a year I have been just stressing out back and forth, and having melt downs as well. For the first time my stress got to me so bad, I had a minor rash, horrible margin, mood swing, and noticing some grey hair (I'm only 22 years old about to turn 23yrs old in Dec 23rd.)
*mentioning of prayer is based on the religious belief my family and friends are in(Catholic/Christians),and same-time I also believe things happen for a reason. I respect and understand other beliefs, you can replace the meaning to what you practice/belief*
This Fall I had a exciting view for myself to finish all my classes with a passing grade and improve myself on the way to be more mature about my lifestyle, now that I'm working part-time and a quick cash side work as a club promoter.
Well everything was going okay, notice that the DRC (Disability Resource Center) could not get a hold of a note taker for me, which means I am screwed. Meanwhile I was had to try to study with what I could take notes of which was only what I could comprehend. I have this one class that's is the first class I need for my Major Degree Program in Sociology, However, I took this class back in the Spring Term 2014 and failed it. Now well lets just say I am in that same struggle boat.
Same Professor and everything, I study the best I could and well grade wise wasn't so well, but better than what I did back in Spring. I know I had a few faults because I procrastinated but also I couldn't comprehend what do to for most of the homework with my disability, and not having help with tutoring and paper revises like I had when I was in the State/Community College. I even applied for a note taker, unfortunately the school don't hire note taker like they did at the community college, they just ask if anyone in the class I am in if anyone wants to volunteer, which no ones would unless the disability of person could not take their own notes. Now because I know I have no hope in passing this class, my other classes are getting affected too.
Its like just when I thought I had everything handled and settle, I somehow screwed up. My mom notice that I'm stressing out more and more has the time ticks down to almost finals. She worries that my health is getting affected from all the stress and trying what I can with my disability to pass just one class before other classes. She said she'll support me no matter what, thou she sacrifice to help finical with me, so I could finish college. I even have few friends and family as well as my mom to pray that something better would work out for me.
Well after so much stress and trying not to make the same mistake I done back in Stetson. After class today (November 24th, 2014), just before our Thanksgiving Break (which I still have class work to do, bummer), She asked how I was doing in class (the hardest that I have been stressing about,) I told her that I so done and stressed out about this I know my grade is a another fail. She was shock because not only this is her first semester as a transfer student but that the I had taken the class before and still no improvement. She said why stress on a major that your not achieving, I changed my major for next term after this class too, You should go check out the Career Center to help you. I went there last week because there is no way, I could use this major in something I know more about. I worked in the Hospitality business since I was 16 and I'm almost in my mid 30s because I worked to save up for college. I went in did this career interest test and talked about my skills and what I know as well what I would I like to learn more about to improve my passion/life. So they helped me change my major to _so and so__ since its similar to Hospitality Management but they don't have it as a major. Since you have very great social networking skills and you know more of what events going on in the city as well your working for a nightclub that had performs of famous musicians also you know most local musicians in the city and go to festivals/events. maybe they could help you find a career path towards that because again why Stress over something you stuck again when you can change for what you know and accomplish that faster and your grade/gpa would be exactly where you want. also you would want to study on it more because its want your interested not what you enjoy to read during your down time. Like I was into sociology major because of what I found interest during my down time but now I notice, I could major in what I'm already doing and still enjoy sociological article reading during my down time. Some people are great at their major because the already have the eye on what they want to be, rather like us it takes one stressed out class to make us realize oops.
Good Luck and let me know if they helped you out and what have you decided on.
After all the stressing, the crying, and sleepless nights I gone through; it suddenly hit me after what she said this might be the answer I have been needing. Right when we parted our ways, I went straight to the career center, set my appointment, and nervous as I was yet excited that this is the change I been needing. Hopefully this does solve my problem and could have my path to finish college with a degree and enjoy my life.
Beside other personal problems I am going through, I really praying and wanting this to be the sunlight to my horrible storm. If this works out for me and everything goes smoothly with the school, I decided to do some improvements to myself meaning I am going to be more mature about my lifestyle since I'll be 23yrs old in Dec 23rd. That means when Next Year hits and the new Spring term begins, I'm going to have to: manage my time better, know when to yes or no to things, if I have a question no matter how stupid I know I may sound ask or ask during office hours( I was planning on doing but the hours were during my work and/or class hours), have time for myself (like go for a walk, read a non-class reading book, visit friends, have lunch/brunch with my mom/friends, or even a night out non club related like n the weekends. Speaking of nightclub promoting, they are very supportive that I'm in college and I only do their Wednesday and Friday night, which is no biggie because I can leave after guest list ends and find out if I get pay or not then leave. Still I would tell them the heads up so I don't have to wait in the back room till they get done with a meeting with whoever.
I will soon what I do want to improve myself since I am getting older because I need to grow up but I can be myself just 23yrs old. So stay tune for that and other post I will be posting soon.
Have you ever gone through anything like I have gone though? let me know down below in the comments.
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