Hello Everyone, I'm Back!

Hi everyone,

It's me, Bonita.
I'm back on blogging again (well slowly getting back in the habit), and would like to catch up on my life updates since the last time I posted something (whoa, 2 years).

Let's break it down some (don't want to go aaalllll in that would be forever, lol):

1.  I've sacrificed a lot to be last year
2.  I had my Welded Magnolia in the Jacksonville Zoo "Zoo of Lights" permanent collection.
3. Had my 8foot by 4foot Woodcut Print Relief displayed at the MOCA Jacksonville.
4. Went to Art Basel Miami 2017 for the first time (hopefully I can go back again)
5. one of my Best Friends (my ride and die) got Married and I got be her Maid of Honor.
6. Ended up on Spring 2018 A/B honors roll and my last semester with a President A honors roll.
7. Graduated with my Bachelors in Fine Arts degree from University of North Florida (finally!!) 
8. Still work working for the bookstore 
1. Went from working at the law school bookstore.
2.  ended up having a new manager (who is awesome, she's one of my good friends/older sister/cousin).
3.  we both had to close the store because we both got promoted to a new store (1 hr and 30 mins away) to open as well  I got promoted to an actual team lead.
4.  I left there to be transferred to a different store back in September to be  more near my university as well for traffic/travel for my last semester at UNF
5. Now I currently work at the same location with the same title
6. I ended applying for something pretty cool even though I would like to go somewhere else but this a good start/step for me.
9. I've interned for Wolfson Children Hospital for the Art with a Heart program there ( making art with kids who are patients at the hospital). I had so much fun and loved it so....
10. After giving my Senior Presentation to the entire Art department aka my professors, They would love for me to continue making art on my own as well take a couple years off before going to Graduate school.
11. I already have in my what I would like to go for grad school for: Art in Medicine at UF (basically what I interned for but in Jax) however I would work with all ages from kids to elders. I could also go for Art therapy, however every graduate schools are different. 
1. I would like to either work with patients in the hospitals/nursing homes/rehab centers.
2.  As well work with kids at school 
3. or have a family practice
4. basically i would like to with everyone and help them through art, as it helped me.
12. Now that I am out of school and just working part-time, I wanted to make time to reeducate my self from k-12 subjects so I don't ever forget them. Now and days, I feel a bit off about how much math or grammar I remember, as well vocabulary, science, and history.
1. I already looked in to Khan Academy to check that out, haven't started, but can't wait to relearn some things. 
2. I have no shame to say that, plus I'm already dyslexic my self, so this is more to improve myself more. 
3. my dyslexia will never go away, however I learned from my research for my art work I made for my senior project, You may never get rid of it but you can always improve yourself by finding what works best for you. 
13. Last thing is I'm going to try to vlog my YouTube again. 
1. links should be on the side but don't worry I'm going to give this blog site an update as well. 

All righty, I know its a long read but we are all caught up (well the most important stuff), so I will be posting more things. Follow me (if you like) to see what more I will post, oh don't forget to follow any of my other social media too ( all links are on the side,if you want to). 

Have a great day,

Bonita xoxo

Spring Semester Already?

Wow Spring already started and it is now already coming to an end. Well I mean my semester is going well so far, I’m taking 3 classes: Color Theory, Litho Printmaking, and African Arts. I really enjoy my classes, I thought about using some of my techniques I gained to make art to sale or gifts. Now since I taken a job at the bookstore and what was supposed to be a seasonal work at Forever 21, I ended work there part-time now. I work now 3 jobs to help maintain school, life and mostly bills. Yes, its all overwhelming with work, school, and trying to maintain a life for myself as a 25yr old. I just hope by the end of this semester I finally be official have my GPA up, and I’m off the school list.

New Me, New Year!

Hello everyone, :)

I'm back so here's a quick update:

• I passed my two Art classes: Intro to Printmaking and 3D design class
• Got a seasonal job at Forever 21
• Also turned 25 years old
  All Hail the Capricorns!!!! 

I hope everyone had a great Holiday!!!!!!!

So I had a busy month already as well coming up, going to back to work at the Bookstore and classes are about to start soon. I got to make sure I give my self a little bit of time for myself as well to do art assignments. I'm going to be taking Lithography, Color Theory, and African Arts: Form,Perf,Affect. I'm so excited to start classes and see what this new year as or me.

speaking of the new me, the fact I turned 25, I wanted to treat myself with free stuff well I went to Sephora and got my skincare product that I tried and loved as well bought a set for a value deal from a sample I was given during my first visit. I got my cleanser: 

• boscia (Detoxifying Black Cleanser) 

I ended up getting a Free Birthday Gift:

•  tarte BIRTHDAY GIFT Tarte Lip and Cheek Set

Came back for this product the next day:

• a value kit for $25 it was a travel size of:
• Origins GinZing™ Energy-Boosting Moisturizer
• Origins High Potency Night-A-Mins™ Mineral-Enriched Renewal Cream

So That's all I wanted to Share to everyone what been updated before the New Year of 2017.

How was your Holiday?
What special gift did you end up getting for yourself?
Are you a Capricorn?

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Saturday and Pinterest

So I know it's been a long time since I've posted a post on my blog. In the time since the last post, I've been busy with my classes and work at my job. Still miss my (well I still miss this guy I really really like) babe.

Anyways I want to post about what I tend to be up to and well right now I'm typing this on my phone, soaking my foot in a foot bath, and watching Harry Potter Marathon.
This week has been crazy busy since Hurricane Matthew came through Jacksonville (my house was way to far inland aka Southwest of Jacksonville, we didn't get any damages just power outage for a few hours) it caused classes cancellation and projects/exams date changes that everyone Just felt lost. Plus Thursday night after class I had to run to my other job because we had Waka Flocla performing. Last night (Friday night) was my usual work night, and today woke up feeling cramping  because it's beginning of my shark week.
So now I've been just going through Pinterest and looking through what interesting things to pin, Click here for my Pinterest page.

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Another Comeback

So working at the bookstore (again) isn't that bad, at least I got job to be working at instead having to look for job while needing a way of payment to pay bills. I just felt blessed that they welcomed me back especially since they are in need of anyone who knows how they work.
Since I couldn't get to take the Summer B (our summer term is divided by 3 parts: Summer A is May to June, Summer B is July to August, and Summer C is May to August), so for now I'm taking a break till Fall term starts and just work right now. I can't wait till Fall term starts, you have no idea, I will be taking 3D design and Intro to Printmaking. I can't wait to learn about the media and see what I could do with them and what style I'm leaning towards. I want to learn many ways of Art mediums and see since I cant make it my own. Charcoal is still getting adjust to yet its my favorite for more control my patients.
Meantime, with the pay I'm is not the same as my other pervious jobs saving money is going to an extra challenge. Doesn't mean I'll give up nope, this is what I call another Comeback. For now I'm just working and focusing in finishing college for my BFA in PDP. I made a pin point idea of when I will finish and finally graduate: Between Summer 2018 to Spring 2019. I know right Crazy how its that long I could of gotten a Doctorates Degree by then. ( I'm still debating about going for my Master and Doc).

Have you even been in a situation like this?
What is your Situations?
What is your Comeback story?
If you could go back to redo any thing from a situation like this, what do you wish you  could of done?

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Well Everything Happens for a Reason

     This weekend went down the steep mountain cliff to climbing back up a different mountain. Luckily, I still focusing in my art and even when crisis hits, art always help coup me as well listening to music and having close friends to be there to support you. So that new job was not happening, apparently being a part-time doesn't really fit for the company, yup I had to leave. However, it would of been different if I was a fulltime because it was more easier to train me and prepare me for the busiest season of logistics, but I just told them I could do part-time and that after a couple of years of college I would be happy to become a full-time. During my training, it wasn't that I had  hard time understanding, it was that I was getting a proper training. When you train some one you have a handbook about what you are going to do, and the person must be full on training you and not get distracted on other things unless its work related. I'm not saying the company done a horrible job training me, it just I wasn't really structured, it was just shadowing the person and do it yourself and they expect you to do it all on your own with out a screw up. I could go on but I think I made the main point across.
     Well I thought the world as over for me and it feels like a relationship that started and ended in a month, it happen so fast but it suddenly came to an end. It's okay, I did have a down for the rest of day even in my ceramic class. I couldn't focus on making my slab work on the salt and pepper shakers with a resting bowl. During the time, after I told my mom the news, I was texting and messaging my close friends about what had happened and I didn't know what to do. I thank God everyday for these friends that I have because without them, I would be super alone to where I could careless about anything happening around me just trying to survive the world. Anyways, my friends suggested me to go back to my old job, UNF Bookstore: I really liked this job, I even wanted to continue to work there but Aeropostale hours wouldn't let me. Moreover, I went in the next morning to ask about rehiring me especially after what happen it was during the time of I need to pay my class, payments, and bills. They said yes, I was already still in the system that even my name tag was still in the office where my friends and I left it during our little ceremony we did for me leaving. Well I got so excited and blessed that I got a job, I could work at after what had happened the day before.
      During this time, I wished I could of talked to this certain friend, I known for 2 years but I don't know if we kind of ended our friendship or it was temporary or it was pause in our life before we could one day reunited again. This friend was kind of like my change in life, I wanted to show that I can be a better person and I'm growing up. Well, on the bright side I really working hard on my ceramic class that if you follow my Instagram/Facebook page you can see some photos I took of my work in progress. I am more excited to continue my art major that I cant wait for Fall semester. I don't even know if I will ever get another job or get promoted along the way but my degree if more important and I finally feeling like I'm getting closer to be graduating after all these years of complications (Oh follow me on LinkedIn). In the meantime I will just focus on my art and working my butt off, and not get anything to distract me. I even noticing that I am becoming a little different with the social circle, like I had my crazy fun times but now it like I don't mind having a fun time but just getting with friends and talk is just nice. I'm only 24 years old now soon to be 25 in Dec, but I feel like already 30+ haha jk.
      Well I will soon have time to write more post, maybe just maybe a video too, but just don't forget to follow me to keep up with what is going on in my life.
Check out previous post: A's with a new job and no BF!
Questions:
Have you even been let go from a job because they either were concern about your work progress and/or the waste of time for having someone being part-time?
What would do if this was to happen to you?
Did your life change to the good or bad after a similar situation happened to you?
Answer the questions down below in the comments.

A's with a new job but NO BF

Okay so I know its been awhile since I posted a blog, but guess what? just guess.......
I got 2 A's on my Spring term: Art history online and Drawing II.
OMG!!!!!
I'm so excited that I got an A, I mean two A's.
My GPA is going up so hopefully by Spring 2017 my GPA is 2.0something so I can be back in the non academic probation.



So I left my job at Aeropostale, for more of a personal reason that its really hard to talk about on here. I gone through a lot there and I had some good times with my associates, but I wasn't really felt welcome there. It was really hard to talk about what I went through. I know I'm suppose to talk about my life on here but this is one where I'm going to keep to myself to be a bit professional about it.

I now work at a logistics company and no joke I have no clue about logistics, but I'm learning a lot about it. This company is so amazing very small and super chill, I already meet the owner, he was so nice and got all of us lunch. it was even funnier because I ended parking next to him in the parking lot too. He knocked on my window and was like "hey do you remember me? oh by the way I'm the owner haha. its all good its nice to meet you. haha." Well that's how I met the owner of the company I work at now. I even helped with a 5k run we are doing to show support to the community.

School wise, I'm taking ceramic now for my Summer class and I starting to understand that I need to work on my patients for it.(Haha) Like I was having a hard time centering the clay on the wheel thrower, but I will get it down for sure I already kind a got two bowls made. I'm excited to make a little pottery collection of my ceramics from class. A few might not be useful for eating/drinking, but atleast it can be displayed or used has a key/jewelry holder or a pencil holder.


Well another update in my life beside I am half way of being 25 years old. I still trying to manage my savings, trying to improve my health and lifestyle. I even staying to get better in my beauty and clothes wear, I got step up my routine you know.
Love life???? well I don't even know why getting in a relationship is so hard but for other people its like nothing, like yea I want a boyfriend like an actual boyfriend and go through the up and downs, even to possible manage, but no matter what some guys are just weak and thinks some girls are a toy. Well I'm over that, I even thought I was going somewhere this one person but turns not nothing, it weird yet I feel like its couple of things that is my fault but why though.
Anyways friends wise, I like hanging out once in awhile with friends either grabbing drinks at the bars or hangout and eat sushi.

Overall, I think I'm starting to mature a little but still enjoying life at the same time I just have to find a way to balance it. Sorry for the delays on the posting I promise I going to try better. Oh, and vlogs are probably not happening but I will try to do videos for YouTube.

How are you doing?
Are you starting a new job? School? etc....

My New Make-Up!

So like I said, I was going to start getting more mature with my life. Not like I'm going to change just be more mature and well together.
down below is my New Make up! I had taken from on my Instagram:

https://www.instagram.com/p/BCJmZIPCPgy/

If you haven't follow me: follow me :)

I went to Ulta Beauty because I always been horrible at buying makeup: wrong skin tone color foundation, wrong type of make-up for my skin type ( I have a combination skin with a small bit of sensitivity), and/or products that I would like to have but later realize I have no idea how to use it.
At Ultra, I had help by this amazing employee, she helped me find the right skin tone foundation and the product she thinks is best for me especially for my busy life. Bonus: during the special the company had, if I bought anything $20 worth of Ulta brand, I get a Free with Purchase gift. Well after I got my three products picked out, I was still wanting more because I want more stuff, not knowing the GWP had everything I actually wanted.
only spent $35 (with tax), and I got three product: Ultra Stick foundation, Contour and Blush sculpting compact, and NYX concealer, as well the small 14-pc GWP makeup kit.
Here's the link to show what I got:
(I couldn't get the image to save, so I could upload it here. I had to link everything)

• Foundation: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod11001355
• Contour/Blush compact: in Astoria http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod6500600
• Concealer: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod13621065

The photo of the 14PC make up kit (you have to buy a ULTA product anything $19.50+)

http://storead.ulta.com/Ulta.php?RelId=6.2.3.24

here is the actual products in the bag, all about full size to travel size:

• Mascara: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod3570105
• Lipstick: in Mauve me http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod6500604
• 6pc eyeshadow: its comes with mixed finishes, some I couldn't find on the site:
• Bayou and MoonBeam: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod3570089 
• Brownie: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod5080023
• and the other three (Full moon, Romance, Give me Gold).
• A Primer: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod2570089
• Eye Makeup remover: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod13661043
• A matte Lip Cream in Allusive: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod11921001
• Blush and Highlighter duo (couldn't find the apricot blush), highlighter in Yellow Diamond: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod11921007#
• mini Nail Polish in Lilac-ing You: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod3570051
• a Brow pencil: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod13561131
• a Dou Eyeliner Pencil (here's the normal sized) in Halo and Brown/Black: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/browse/productDetail.jsp?productId=xlsImpprod4370701
• and I got the Mint bag and it had the three brushes.

I really glad I got this, I'm thinking about getting another one for my mom as her Birthday gift.
I already been using the products and I'm already loving it. Again this is a small step, I'm still a beginner at using makeup properly.
Stay in touch for more posts.


What are your favorite brands?
What is your favorite product? (mine is always forever Mascaras lol)
Are you also looking for a start in your own kit?
You are you a beginner like me or an expect in make up?
Any advice/tips?

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My Starter Kit at being 24 years old

Now that I’ve been 24yr old for over a month now (Dec 23rd), I realize I need to upgrade and invest on getting things that are best for me. What am I talking about? Well I mean like:

•   Getting out of the lazy skincare routine: I don’t do much I tried but nothing works just breaks me out.
• Actual doing my hair:
•   instead of the old bun, braid, and pony tail look (it looks like I rushed out of bed to prevent from being late [85% of the time I’m rushing])
•  Getting the right product for my hair to keep it looking healthy and not so dull and dead/ewwy.
•   To actual dress like I’m put together:
•  I work in retail for about up to 30hrs a week and looking not so put together people would have no respect to me and the same you never who could be scouting/checking you out. They would know I probably have one pair of jeans and three leggings I wear and only sweater/flannels. I look why out of date when I’m trying to look like what we have in the store I work at.
• When I’m not at work, I’m an Art student I wear either a workout outfit with a sweatshirt, or a bit basic since I’m drawing I got to be very comfortable and not freak out getting charcoal on myself.
• When going out I real lack on my outfit planning, I would go by my mood:
• Do I want to meet someone?
• Girls Night Out: girly, upscale, or just getting drinks to celebrate our anti-valentine days. Lol
•   Just hanging with the boys/friends (coworkers/friends)
•   Date night (rarely/never happens)
•   Concert/event
• Etc…
• Wear some make up but doing it right too.
•    I don’t like wearing makeup because it bother my skin but I ALWAYS wear mascara, and now I try to make my brows my “lively” especially working in retail and the lighting in the store. I would like to wear makeup especially going out just don’t want to look like I don’t know how to contour/blush.
• The right shoes, all I wear are my Sperry’s. It’s comfortable but I not with all my outfits especially during our winter collection, I can finally wear sandals but still need trendy cute shoes.  
•   Including adding in my fitness routine into my schedule. I love the elliptical: while watching the tv show on it. I would love to go for runs outside but I’m start from the very basic on just trying to getting my body cardio, slim some unwanted fats, and not die incase theirs a zombie apocalypse (just saying). Plus I just want to be able to be in a health fit and improve my cardio.

Don’t worry I will be sharing my products and my routines, as well a possible weekly vlog.

Starting February 1^st (which is today haha), is when I’m starting my vlogs J,  you will get some clips of my life by following me around. I’ll try to edit them and post them once a week by Sunday on my YouTube channel. Well That’s all I had in mind and going to catch some sleep.

Have a good night/good day. J xoxo

(it was late when I typed this)

It a New Year and a New Me! 2016

Hey y’all I’m back

I know it been a while since I posted but here’s what’s up with my life even now that it’s the new year (btw Happy Belated Year of 2016!!!!!). So since I started my new semester at UNF as an Art student in the Fine Art major, I finished with two C’s (not bad passing wise, but I wished I could’ve of gotten B’s),  working crazy hours at my retail job as a Sales Lead Manager (I never hated the Holidays more working for it). If I had little less crazy from work and got more flexible with my classes I would have been okay, at least I passed and the school okayed me to stay in the program (even though I was supposed to get B’s to raise my GPA), and I am now taking Art History 2 online and Drawing 2.  I really got to focus on raising my GPA because it’s now a 1.09 (yay!):

So I started UNF from FSCJ with a 2.8 GPA, after Spring, Summer, and Fall semesters of having hard time with classes (failed most but passed a couple with C’s) when I was in Sociology major minoring in Urban studies which ended later so I had to take History as my new minor. My GPA dropped to a .94; which I thought it was insane ended up suspended for the spring semester, however due to my disability, many paper works, meetings with advisors, and the biggest help of from my favorite Career counselor, the school allow me back to a new major that accepted me. Normally the Deans of each Academic department wouldn’t allow those who are that deep in the struggles of GPA, but I had a feeling the dean saw something within me, they even don’t allow suspended student especially since the Art and Music are the Strictest in our school (to me though I don’t blame them).

I’m really making such I getting B’s (obviously I want A’s), as long I keep up with my project/homework and doing to the work. My job is a bit time consuming but if dint have especially with the pay I’m getting I wouldn’t be able to afford my classes/supplies or even commute to class. Now I’m in art I trying to discover my career path, my retail job is like an open door for: Sales, Marketing, Advertising, Management, Interior Designing, and Stylist. I was trying to have more of a fun yet get to be openly creative to what where I would get to work at. I’ve been looking towards working in the fashion field, I know right, not to many people know me but I use to collect all of Seventeen magazine and even look at others for the Fashion trends, styling tips, even got some advice from my mother since she a fashionista herself (she might know all about the fashion world but dressing up is no joke to my mom. Her closet of her fabulous clothes from her when she was in her 20’s til 2008 (she had her brain tumor and gain some weight from the recovery, she survived it)). I always had such interest in fashion, I might not like some of the girls I know who gets all dressed up and wears make up from known brands, and I’m a bit in my own style trend. I never know my exact “stereotype” of my fashion trend, I like to just make whatever I own work out and be very comfortable for the mood. I could write another blog on this. LOL

Back to the point, I couldn’t believe that how much I really enjoy art. I get so into it that I know I can’t cheat around or bullshit on my art piece because everyone could see it. I even get excited to try other art practices such as ceramic, sculpting, printmaking, even want to try to get photography in my elective. Like in my other many majors I’ve been in I would either get bored or find no point in the purpose for it to be taught. In art I notice that everyone in my class has to draw the same casting but they all have different technique of their own, unlike in my other majors someone paper could be exactly like my just worded differently or had better writing. I know it only the first 2weeks of the semester but I really can’t wait to see my drawing turns out in the end as well my interest in Art history. Speaking of art history, my first professor from Art history 1, she told us how she had a student who was a business major and need credits for his international business course, so after taking her for Art history 1 and 2, and later graduated. He ended landing a job because the Company owner/ceo or manger (he’s boss), has an interest in art that he collects them and even travel world to visit sites. He had a little conversation about their favorite period of art that he ended getting hired and would get invited to art events. Talk about amazing. I even have a Doctor ( in the military hospital, my doctors got deployed, some of them do get deployed or they are lucky to settle) who as such interest in art his wife is an artist and has a mini art gallery in his office (he wants one of my art to be in his galley when I come back for an appointment). Being in art, I notice that I see everything even more interesting in the values it holds, I usually like to stare at things and say things, but in art it’s like I learn to know “why I like it” not just “I like it” it like I have to go deeper. It really amazing it like they say “a picture has a 1000 words.”

Update in my Life: Almost 24years old

Hello its been so long since I last posted about my update in life.

if you haven't read it go back to my posts to catch up, meantime here's a rundown of what happened:

• Deciding between Majors
• I ended up getting accept in Art Major: Drawing, Painting, and Print Making Major of the Fine Arts here in UNF ( University of North Florida in Jacksonville, Florida) 
• I'm currently taking 2D design class and Art History part 1 (yes, I'm taking only 2 classes. I'm use to taking 4 classes since I started college, but for the Art major and due to my Suspension (I am required to take 2 classes every semester, make a B grade average or higher to continue the UNF, and my Job is taking up to many hours of my week) 
• Getting a Job
• I got a job in retail so going from Sales associate of the UNF Bookstore, I'm now a Sales Lead Manager of Aèropostale.
• I like my job however its way to many hours of my week that its hard for me (personally) to keep up with my Art. I work 30 hours a week which is not bad but try to work on your art projects that require atleast 5-10hours of your time to perfect it.

I am happy that I got the opportunity to have this job and getting accept in the Art program when I've been suspended from UNF, its just I'm almost 24 years old I barely get a chance to enjoy myself with friends and have a relationship with a guy (still kinda single, just unsure where I'm at with this one guy I've been talking too) anyways my biggest decision is should I stay with my job or find another job even if its another part time to allow me to spend more time in my Art projects.
I thought of this one job that I got a call back from thou I already got the job I have now. Its one of those 8am-5pm jobs, and the guy who as a manger really wanted me to work there even as a Student. I don't know if I want to move on to that job, I already got my next semester classes set and I could still work there if they allow, however later I would have to take night classes for the rest of my classes to be finish with my degree.
Now about my major, I'm doing okay with my Art History class, but with my 2D is a struggle due to not spending time on working patiently with my projects, its all rushed and ugly.
I'll let y'all know about the how I'm doing again in 2 weeks (end of the semester) to see if I stay in the Art program or not.

Have you been in a similar problem? How did you get through it? What is your advice? What do you think I should do?
Answer the questions don below in the comments, I'll try to respond back :)
Thanks for reading.

Final Decision part 2 and an Mini Update

If you have read my last post on (Oh Decision Making This Major or That )
well I made my decision which would be either shocking for you or kind of knew this was coming.... I decided to be in the..... Art Major!!!!!!
I'm so excited yet little nervous because its a very huge change in my studies and how my life will become.
Oh an update with my job, I'm now a Sale Lead at my store aka the 4th Manager. I like my work just there's so much responsibility and can not skew it up, its retail so I have to multitask my manger duty, helping with clothes, keeping up with my associates, and helping costumers with whatever they need. If anyone ever in a job in their life I recommend working in either Restaurants and/or Retail, both teaches you about costumers services and same-time see how people act if your into people behavior especially when out in public. Trust me I had to deal with the worst now because I'm also Manger and if I'm the only one that's on duty (OMG) the its just insane. I rather be an associate that calls the manger over than being the manger dealing the dumb problems. LOL
Back to my new Art Major the classes I'll be taking this Fall Semester are: 2-D design and Art History 1, only taking two classes because of my manger hours at work (25-30hrs a week). I can't to purchase my Art History book and buy my art supplies for my 2-D design class, I wonder how its going to balance out with work, classes, and my own little social life. With my disability this is going to be an interesting challenge that I am go to go through, instead of textbooks and papers I am making Art. Its not difficult its just a huge change in "study habits"; I do know I'm going to be challenge with my creative imagination to make a piece of art work.
Now that I have everything set and ready, I have to create a Time-Managing schedule for myself in order to have time for my own social life because I want to have dinner and/or go out for drinks with friends as well be able to go to events like art show, music festival, concert, or a road trip to wherever. Lets not forget even down time for my self to refresh my mind and soul, especially if I ever get asked on a date by a guy, he'll like the fact I have my own life but I can make time for us to go on a date or even stay in for the night. Well that's if I was dating, I'm still single (unless otherwise because that's a whole other confusion I don't understand about this guy lol).
Meantime now I'm just trying to work,  get with friends when we can, and trying to relax my mind because in the 24th of Aug, is my First day back to school after not being in school for 8months.
also figuring out about myself, trying to understand the meaning of music I listen too, trying to make  little time to read the favorite classics. I'll be 24yrs old soon (in Dec 23rd) and I want to make sure I at least have this far of my together, be mature and still enjoy the fun.

so what's your update in life?
Are an Art Student? or Majored in Art?
What's it like being in Art?
What Major are you in or What Major did you earn?
Any Advice?

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Oh the Decision Making: This Major or That Major

So as I mentioned in my pervious post (My Very Long Spring Break, if you haven't read it yet) anyways, I have some huge decision making (again) on what Bachelor would be: Fine Arts in Painting, Drawing, and Print Making degree or Supervision and Management degree.
I had asked my friends what they think and its both half and half vote, so I decided which really would be best for me as in what would say "I used what would be the most comfortable, excited to learn more of, and no matter what I learned to use critical thinking that would help me improve and use as I get older."
After I had the talk with my favorite Career Counselor when I was told Art would be best for me, I would stress less on papers and could use that stress to express in my art work. Unlike my management class I would learn nothing but business laws and how to mange. Now I did ask a few very few close people who's opinions matter the most beside family; it's mostly because either I grew up with them and/or we've been friends for short/long period of time, but still knew me very very well. Since Dance major was not an option (I wish ha ha), Art was chosen over Management because I'm more creative than serious (ha ha "Why so Serious?")
Now another decision is on: How would it take me to finish either degree?, How much would it cost for classes with/without finical aid?.
Depending on how many classes I take per semester, for Management: 1 1/2 to 2years; Art: 3yrs to more.  As for Art, I would have to take at least 2 classes per semester till my GPA goes up, till the Chairman's of Art department see that I am ready for the regular 4 classes a semester, and/or that my new upcoming job (for right now its my second job until my Training is over, oh yea I forgot to mention, I was asked and so I applied for Assistant Manger for Aeropostale at the local mall near my house. They have me in training as Merchandise Flow and better pay till I got the understanding of the Store, I learned a lot from my current job at the UNF Bookstore doing almost every positions in there and can't wait to move and learn more yet have a position a normal 23 year old would have), in which I would have to take a while because I will soon be having 30+ hours of work and the class for art are around 2-4hrs long, unlike management would mostly be online or hybrid (in-class lecture/presentation and mostly the class work/discussion online.  Also I could take my perquisites classes for Art at the local State/Community college than later transfer the credits back to UNF, or just take all my management class at the local State/Community college. its also a lot more closer (in a way) from my house and new work than UNF commute.
Now with the Career choice, I have no idea what I would really want to be, plus the whole you have to go for a job based on your major is myth, I found most people taken many Major of different kind from their college days than later went to take their MBA (Master degree) in what would be mostly best comfort or required for a job position/even just because they want to go for something else they want to go for.
I figure since the Highest I would go for in college is Master, even my mom is okay with that, she understand my frustrations in school in general is high and support my decision as long I get my bachelor.
At this point you might be wonder, "What major did you decided on?

I have decided on .........


Comment down below if you had to go through the same decision making, if so, on what major?
What major do think I should choose? or What do you think I will go for?
What was your college experience like especially during the decision making? how did you decided?and What's your major/What major are you going for?
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Update: I had a very long Spring Break

Oh my goodness, its been to long since I wrote anything in this blog of mine. Well, I'm back *haha*
I have been extremely hustling and resting this Spring, you might be wondering, are you taking any classes? This semester (Spring Term) I was allowed to take any classes. What? Really? How?
Well I ended up getting suspended for this Spring semester because of my failing attempts that domino from when I transferred to the University last Spring till just this past Fall. I pasted a few of my classes however the main reason was my 1st Core class out the four I would need for my Bachelor program in Sociology, I couldn't past the class even on my second attempt.

I could blame the fact that I wasn't getting the help I requested due to the fact I have a learning disability, as well as my professor has an ego that we should be up to his standard of a college student. Another reason could be I was pushing myself hard enough however I didn't feel passionate to push myself to go outside the box of understanding/studying for my classes. I had that feeling "why am I do this, if I love something I would be making myself go crazy to understand and push my limits to show that I could this and the benefits of getting a grade.

Further more of the reason, I might of been to into the social environment, I before during my last summer for my A.A. classes, I made friend who enjoyed going to the nightlife. The different between her and I, She been the social party girl and knows how to balance that, work, and school; Me on the other hand, I never club nor gone to the bars before (I've only gone to club back in my freshmen year at my very old college but maybe 6 times of that year just to dance after an exam/birthday). I never gone to the local clubs here in the city or to the bars since I finally turned 21 at the time. Since the couple of times I gone out with her after the semester and especially during her birthday night (never drank a lot before also learned to never mix drink), We are still good friends till this day and I'm not blaming her for anything at all, I thank her though for introducing me to the city socialize people from Big Djs, model, owners, etc.. talk about social networking.
Since I transferred to UNF while she was still finishing getting her A.A I met a few people from the club and school, been going almost every club night or Bar night (no drinking) to keep the social. OMG, I got caught to being really social it insane, now I trying to make it a strict rule for myself: only go to the club when its a Birthday, GNO, or Performance; Bars on some weekends with friends that way we all can go when we all have a night/weekend off. Being 23 now, I not going to lie but I got to experience the 18 or 21 year life I couldn't get to enjoy. Not going to lie I learned a lot about socializing with people it was like a social experiment.

The last reason, I started working as well right when I transferred to UNF, I work at the bookstore on campus and later on promoter for the club just to get extra cash. I never had to work when I was getting my A.A. degree so I had time to focus in my classes. However, the classes I was taking were to difficult to study ( I have a very poor study habit since I left high school). The same time this is my first actual job, I had work before and got my paycheck but all I done was set up and take down, and keep score for the intermural sports at Stetson. Here at the bookstore, I never thought I could work casher, retail, online orders, as well textbooks all in one. Since I have been working I notice that it took time from my studies, plus the fact both school and work are a 1 hour commute from my house. Now that I am not taking a semester of classes I just work however, they cut hours so I only work 2days a week which is ridicules for a 1hr commute.

The suspension didn't go the way I thought, I had to fill out an appeal to get back in the program as well back to UNF, they denied me from the Sociology. :(

I already talk to a Career Counselor to help figure out a major that would be best for me. She was Amazing, I believe I mention all about this experiences in my last blog post. Anyways, she suggested Art Major, she took art as a major and her husband was in the same boat too, it was nice that someone who not only been on the same boat o what to major in but the fact her husband had a similar struggle with his major before changing to Art. She believe I could express more and why not have a major where all you do is color, draw, paint, and play around with ceramic. Well because I got denied from Sociology, my new Sociology felt bad and she wants be to have great college experience and finish happy and prove myself to a successful life, she knew I talked to the counselor about art she wanted me to Appeal back in for Art in the mean time I already met the Art Advisor and He believe this would be amazing for me, he helped me every way to make sure I get in.

I was told by my Career Counselor, I should go to the Career Fair to get a good experience in a Job opportunity, turned out the first only job that was really excited to want me was Aeropostale, I was shocked, and have also of thinking to do because I would have to leave my bookstore job for them. Same time I was concern about the appeal, so I had a back up plan, as always in order to hustle in my Life. I went to my college where I got my A.A. degree, to apply for the Management Bachelor degree. I still have more paperwork to turn in since I still live at home with my mom (talk about great benefits though).

Well I sent my Appeal and He email me back 2days later to say he was excited to tell me that I got accepted for the Art program. The great thing about taking art was I took drawing 1 class already for my A.A. elective class and I had so much fun and got a B+, I never thought m drawings would be graded that high. I am really nervous about this change in my life and having to realize that I'm 23 years old abut to become more adult to life. 

• Getting Accepted to the Fine Art major
• Got a job offer for Aeropostale
• Having Great close friends to be with and all are pressuring to reach for their career. No matter if they are married, far or near, they are the best supporters.

For now I'm still hustling everything before I have to let go of a lot of things and take dive in to the deep end. Goodbye 3ft deep pool, Hello 8ft deep pool. *Haha*

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Have you ever been through a change like this?

Have you ever had to realize its time to work hard/study hard for what you want?
Ever change a College major, from what to what?
What College/University do you go too?

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From the Following Update of my Pervious Post

So from my pervious post on my update about how I was stressing out and wanted to change my degree and so on. Turns out the Career Counselor was no help at all, basically expressing the vibe to be that I must be very stubborn? Well, I had a sarcasm moment to my self-saying “That was helpful.” She was trying to grasp of what I’m into but I have way to much experience as well as what seemed to be interesting that I could do. Overall, the result was change your mange that could cause myself to stay in college longer or find a job before I could finish my degree and that might help me. With my disorder/disability makes it harder because I don’t if I can do it, that’s part of my stubbornness. After all the stressing, I still had no idea what to do. I told my mom all about it, she agrees that I’m way to stubborn and proud that I’m way to experience, but she believes that I could finish my degree with I high hopes. Well at this point no matter how much no one understands, I’m failing this one class I need to pass to move on in the degree program (sociology), I asked my advisor and he said I could still graduate in Fall 2015. So I explained that I might have to retake this class but I would have only two more classes and two more for the elective also one more for my minor. That brought my hopes up to know I almost done, however,  I still need: internships and a job that I could be happy about to work for right after I graduate even if involves moving.
That is another problem I am worried about, moving away for work and not know if I would still have friends and/or if they would support me on the move and still stay contact possible visit each other.
All I know is I really going to try even harder to make sure my degree comes before everything, and time management like I use to. I stopped because I wasn’t sure where and what to do with it in my room at home compare how I had it in the dorm at my freshmen pervious university.
Tonight (11/29), I just emailed my professor on the a paper I'm interested to do after the past week I could figure out what topic for the survey, so now I am going to clean my room. My mom is trying to do some Winter cleaning (Spring cleaning but during the Winter season), plus would help bring some peace in the house before the New Year.
My said I could rearrange my room because she has a gift for my room, so that means upgrade my room for a mature look, organize everything from closet to room, and clean out my room to be clean. So might help me distress and find a way to set up my study/ time management. That’s what I’m about to do, hopefully  I can get the answer from my professor telling me that I finally got it or I’m still going to so feel even more dumber.  

My College Update, Fall Term 2014!

Well, what a year I have been just stressing out back and forth, and having melt downs as well. For the first time my stress got to me so bad, I had a minor rash, horrible margin, mood swing, and noticing some grey hair (I'm only 22 years old about to turn 23yrs old in Dec 23rd.)
*mentioning of prayer is based on the religious belief my family and friends are in(Catholic/Christians),and same-time I also believe things happen for a reason. I respect and understand other beliefs, you can replace the meaning to what you practice/belief*

This Fall I had a exciting view for myself to finish all my classes with a passing grade and improve myself on the way to be more mature about my lifestyle, now that I'm working part-time and a quick cash side work as a club promoter.
Well everything was going okay, notice that the DRC (Disability Resource Center) could not get a hold of a note taker for me, which means I am screwed. Meanwhile I was had to try to study with what I could take notes of which was only what I could comprehend. I have this one class that's is the first class I need for my Major Degree Program in Sociology, However, I took this class back in the Spring Term 2014 and failed it. Now well lets just say I am in that same struggle boat.
Same Professor and everything, I study the best I could and well grade wise wasn't so well, but better than what I did back in Spring. I know I had a few faults because I procrastinated but also I couldn't comprehend what do to for most of the homework with my disability, and not having help with tutoring and paper revises like I had when I was in the State/Community College. I even applied for a note taker, unfortunately the school don't hire note taker like they did at the community college, they just ask if anyone in the class I am in if anyone wants to volunteer, which no ones would unless the disability of person could not take their own notes. Now because I know I have no hope in passing this class, my other classes are getting affected too. 
Its like just when I thought I had everything handled and settle, I somehow screwed up. My mom notice that I'm stressing out more and more has the time ticks down to almost finals. She worries that my health is getting affected from all the stress and trying what I can with my disability to pass just one class before other classes. She said she'll support me no matter what, thou she sacrifice to help finical with me, so I could finish college. I even have few friends and family as well as my mom to pray that something better would work out for me.
Well after so much stress and trying not to make the same mistake I done back in Stetson. After class today (November 24th, 2014), just before our Thanksgiving Break (which I still have class work to do, bummer), She asked how I was doing in class (the hardest that I have been stressing about,) I told her that I so done and stressed out about this I know my grade is a another fail. She was shock because not only this is her first semester as a transfer student but that the I had taken the class before and still no improvement. She said why stress on a major that your not achieving, I changed my major for next term after this class too, You should go check out the Career Center to help you. I went there last week because there is no way, I could use this major in something I know more about. I worked in the Hospitality business since I was 16 and I'm almost in my mid 30s because I worked to save up for college. I went in did this career interest test and talked about my skills and what I know as well what I would I like to learn more about to improve my passion/life. So they helped me change my major to _so and so__ since its similar to Hospitality Management but they don't have it as a major. Since you have very great social networking skills and you know more of what events going on in the city as well your working for a nightclub that had performs of famous musicians also you know most local musicians in the city and go to festivals/events. maybe they could help you find a career path towards that because again why Stress over something you stuck again when you can change for what you know and accomplish that faster and your grade/gpa would be exactly where you want. also you would want to study on it more because its want your interested not what you enjoy to read during your down time. Like I was into sociology major because of what I found interest during my down time but now I notice, I could major in what I'm already doing and still enjoy sociological article reading during my down time. Some people are great at their major because the already have the eye on what they want to be, rather like us it takes one stressed out class to make us realize oops.
Good Luck and let me know if they helped you out and what have you decided on.
After all the stressing, the crying, and sleepless nights I gone through; it suddenly hit me after what she said this might be the answer I have been needing. Right when we parted our ways, I went straight to the career center, set my appointment, and nervous as I was yet excited that this is the change I been needing. Hopefully this does solve my problem and could have my path to finish college with a degree and enjoy my life.
Beside other personal problems I am going through, I really praying and wanting this to be the sunlight to my horrible storm. If this works out for me and everything goes smoothly with the school, I decided to do some improvements to myself meaning I am going to be more mature about my lifestyle since I'll be 23yrs old in Dec 23rd. That means when Next Year hits and the new Spring term begins, I'm going to have to: manage my time better, know when to yes or no to things, if I have a question no matter how stupid I know I may sound ask or  ask during office hours( I was planning on doing but the hours were during my work and/or class hours), have time for myself (like go for a walk, read a non-class reading book, visit friends, have lunch/brunch with my mom/friends, or even a night out non club related like n the weekends. Speaking of nightclub promoting, they are very supportive that I'm in college and I only do their Wednesday and Friday night, which is no biggie because I can leave after guest list ends and find out if I get pay or not then leave. Still I would tell them the heads up so I don't have to wait in the back room till they get done with a meeting with whoever.
I will soon what I do want to improve myself since I am getting older because I need to grow up but I can be myself just 23yrs old. So stay tune for that and other post I will be posting soon.

Have you ever gone through anything like I have gone though? let me know down below in the comments.

The Rules of Fashion

*Sorry for the lack of posts*

Growing up my mother always loved to dress me up. I was like her baby doll plus even my fathwer wanted to be sure I was in style no matter how young I was. My mother has a passion for fashion, she might never had much of an oppitunite but No Matter where you are from the Rules exsited. She always had her own style of wear however my father was more the Man with Good Tatste, he like brands for example he's favotire brand of sunglasses are Ray Bans. My father would splurge on some stuff that he'll know will last long when taken care of.

As for me I love to have my own Style still would to go to my mother for the okay. Even thou I am older (22 years old soon to be 23 in Dec.) I should be more mature of my style, also shows what store you shop at. In that case I could still pull off well mature looks from Walmart (budget), however sometimes I still have shirts form when I was in Jr/High school.

Meanwhile, I'm just trying to be more focus in college and trying not to gain anymore weight than I already have. *not trying to me lose so much weight just to lose 20lbs of fat just so I can be healthy and lean.
I doing this for myself to be more comfortable in my clothes and no suffer have to not wear some outfits becasue it would be to tight or show my love handles. Unless you know where to shop for your size than perfect but for me some stores only have certin size (since I don't shop online). My style would be more whatever im in the mood/occation (not a very fashionable term here).
I either dress to what I feel in the mood for at the same time where/what I'll be doing that day/night. probably the most laziest for when I go to class is gym wear.
My mother is more Chic Bohimen and my Dad was more that Beachwear the kind of the guy who would smoke a cigar on the beachshore.  (I also love to follow fashion blogs as well)

Anyways lets get back to point, even til this day with the struggle to wear a cute outfit (weight problem, budget, miminal clothing wear, etc..) These rules should be remember no matter your taste in style however you can still bend and/or break the rules (I know you are a Rebel). I would say these rules from Glamour Magazine (UK) has it down that even my mother agrees, The Rules of Fashion.

Tell me what are your Fashion Rules that you follow?
Do you agree or disgree with these rules?
Tell me whats is your fashion style and why do you think describes you?
Do you have a fashion blog and/or do you follow anyone who does?
whats your favorite Desginer

Lush Review

Here is a video of my Lush Review
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Its been awhile update

Hey everyone

I have been really busy to have time to sit down and blog or even to vlog on my YouTube Channel. Every time I tried I ended up wanting to just sleep. I know it might sound like an excuse, but if your a busy person you'll under stand. Beside working at my campus bookstore temporary and taking summer class, I also got involved in promoting for a local night club. I promote for them cause I go there often and since I have been going since August 2013, I got to know people to where its somewhat like a family. Since last summer everything has been changing mostly on friends, and now its still changing by avoiding negative  people. Others are either in a relationship, married, having a baby, have kids, or just doing noting. Its interesting how other outside of my "circle" and/or not Facebook friends notice I either need more friends or new ones. I think they meant I need friends who are somewhat has equal as me. working, in college, around the same age group, and more social. Also not always in drama, that is a thing that annoys me. Its always about someone, besides bring up the person for examples of what went bad or good is different than having to get them to move on /cut them off your life. Last thing about drama are those who are so negative, ignorant, and very unmannered; I never been so annoyed or uncomfortable around anyone who is always so negative that just beyond what I could explain, and someone who always just have no manners again I could not explain.  Another  reason the "outsiders" meant is because I'm still single, its sometimes hard to hangout with friends in a relationship because your single and they have a different view of fun. especially when you never had any experience of the dating ever (like me). Oh, and so no focusing on guys right now, when time is right it would happen.

Beside people, I trying to focus more on my studies, lately Ive been to distracted from drama after drama. I might seem MIA (missing in action), to them and they might think I'm ignoring them but out of all of my friends, I'm in school. again not an excuse but its true. they only know me for a few months but anyone I've known for years even since childhood/toddler knows me so well. School comes before anyone, no matter how difficult it is for me especially with my disability/disorder, and how social I can be. I might like being in school due to some really bad experiences I have gone through that No One not even my friends or Family knows, well besides my mom. I just enjoy better when I learn on my own or if there is a teacher/professor who makes the learning very interesting almost has if just meant for you to understand rather than being negative or just plain boring.
Lately Ive been struggling, so know I trying on my own knowing how to focus more in my studies than what is going on around me, Yes I get that easily distracted but its not always self discipline that helps (that annoys me the most when someone says this to me when they don't  understand not everyone could, some has to take medicine however I don't want to take a pill).
I feel like and was suggested by "outsiders" if I could have some friends that are also working, studies and social similar to me, I could be well balanced and not have so much drama besides just knowing when is everyone's free-time haha. Moreover, on the age as well, I am 22 years old till December 23rd, but again age doesn't matter unless your going bars or clubs (some are 18+ but the ones your actually dress for are 21+ only). 
The Last thing out of All That, I am saving money so I could move out to the student housing because commuting everyday sometimes three times a day every week for an hour is a ridiculous when that where your money goes to the most and having to get food when your out and about because if I make lunch and put in my lunch box, well let me just say with this heat it either melted, soggy, or spoiled ( ewww).  however, I am watching what I am eating and trying to get time to hit the gym, even if it for 15- 30 mins of cardio.

Basically, I am Focusing on Myself. By getting more focus on what is important to me than having to worry about others drama (they could handle themselves), Just know how to balance everything, and care on my health.

Are you going through the same thing let me know down below in the comments, Facebook your comments, or reply on the tweet. have any tips, advice or just want to share what your going through as well is fine by me.

Lack of Posts

Hey everyone I'm very sorry about not posting anything for my blog. I have been so busy at my new university. (finally decided to go to University of North Florida (UNF)). the same time I actually cracked the screen of my laptop with the force of my thumb (the almighty hulk thumb, lol) by the way my laptop is an hp not a mac. Since the first day of classes I have been using the library computer, which i don't mind  but i love my freedom of my laptop plus I could use it in class. I just finding a place to fix my laptop in the meanwhile you should definitely follow my Instagram, Tumblr, twitter, Facebook page, and everything else which I have on the side bar.
I also wanted to do blog by video ( I am a talker which makes me a slow at typing(sometimes), lol) plus with me doing my blog talks you can hear and/or see my expressions, voice change for each person, the tone, my voice ;), etc.
for those like reading my blog and/or follow me please in the comments tell me what could I talk about, if you prefer reading > video, or video<reading or both.
I don't have my list and I still remember all the topics and stories I want to share.
so don't worry.