Back again, Did you miss me?

Hi, friends!

Where and how should I even start this blog post? So much has happened since the last time I posted here. I looked back and realized my last post was from 2019. Wow!

I’ve had so much going on since then, and I really wish I could have kept up with blogging. I’ll try to make this as easy as possible to catch up on everything that has happened over the years.

2019–2020: A Lot Happened!

Of course, 2020 was a wild year. Pretty much everyone reading this knows what happened: the COVID-19 pandemic.

But even before that, life was already changing.

My Best Friend

2019: My best friend, who had recently gotten married, ended up getting divorced. Her husband cheated on her and was caught.

Current update: She’s still working in corrections and has one more semester left in her Radiation Therapy program. I’m so proud of her!

She recently told me that she and her new boyfriend are doing well and are planning to move in together. Don’t worry—I’ve met him, and I really like him for her. He is way, way, way better for her. Honestly, I feel like he was a Godsend compared to her exes and ex-husband.

I’m so happy for her! ❤️

Career Changes

2019: I was thinking about going to graduate school after finishing my BFA in Art, or possibly joining the Air Force as an officer.

Current update: Well… no grad school and no Air Force officer career!

I currently work in the parts department of a dealership. I started there during the pandemic because the bookstore I was working at was struggling, and I knew I probably wasn’t going to have much of a future there anyway.

I actually really like my job. I originally started as a porter, thanks to a friend/technician who helped me get the job. Later, with some moral support, I worked up the courage to ask to apply for an open position in the parts department. Here I am, almost five years later, and I’m at the top of my parts team!

I had been thinking about leaving because I wanted to do something different and make more money. I make decent money now—enough to be stable—but most of it goes toward loans and debt, so I’m still trying to get ahead.

I’ve been thinking about possibly going into one of two different fields: healthcare or coding. We’ll see what happens because there are some changes happening at work right now.

If things become too much for me to handle, I may have to make a change. My job can be stressful because I work on commission, and my pay depends on other people finishing their work. It can be frustrating compared to having a steady hourly wage.

My Art

2019: I wanted to continue pursuing art, possibly even going to graduate school for something like Art in Medicine. I wanted to perfect my art because, looking back, getting through my art degree was kind of a loophole for me as well as a stressful form of relief.

Does that make sense?

Current update: I still miss doing art!

If I were to get back into art now, I think it would be more of a stress-relief activity or hobby rather than something I want to pursue as a career.

I’ve actually learned a lot more about art by watching TikTok, Instagram, and YouTube, too. There are so many talented artists and tutorials online now!

Re-Educating Myself

2019: I wanted to re-educate myself.

I felt like I was getting rusty because I had been out of school for a while and was forgetting a lot of things I had learned. My math, grammar, and other school subjects were slowly fading from my memory. I wanted to use YouTube and old-school textbooks to refresh my knowledge and keep my mind educated.

I know there are plenty of people out there who are grammar Nazis, while others struggle with grammar. As someone with a learning disability, I’ve always felt like I wasn’t challenged or educated as well as I could have been in school, which made college a struggle for me. That’s why I wanted to re-educate myself—not necessarily to become some genius, but just to feel more mentally mature, knowledgeable, and confident.

Current update: Still haven’t really tried. LOL.

I’m doing somewhat better just by dealing with everyday work and life and trying to learn and comprehend things better. I even bought a book to read, but I never made it past the first chapter. 😂

Recently, I downloaded the Kindle app on my phone and started using Audible so I can read and listen at the same time. I really wanted an actual Kindle, but I told myself I’m not allowed to buy one until I’ve read 10 books total. I might even write summaries and share them with my besties because they love reading!

YouTube and Vlogging

2019: I wanted to start vlogging on YouTube because I thought I would have more time once I was just working and living life.

Current update: LOL. WRONG.

I probably could have vlogged, but there was just way too much going on—even during the pandemic. 

I wanted to have a fun life, but instead, I was still struggling with a lot of mental and financial issues. I was supposed to vlog our trip to San Diego Comic-Con, but that was a complete fail. That trip deserves its own post because there is a lot more to that story. Hopefully, I’ll actually write it!

In October 2026, we’re planning to go to Japan, and hopefully I’ll have my vlogging and photography stuff ready for the trip.

The Pandemic and My Mom

During the pandemic, my mom was very lucky because she was able to have her breast cancer surgery right before COVID really started affecting everything.

I took about two weeks of FMLA to help take care of her. Then I went back to work, only to find out about three weeks later that we were being furloughed because of the COVID pandemic.

That’s how I ended up taking the job as a porter.

It honestly wasn’t too bad, and I made way more money than I expected. Sadly, it was also my first full-time job at 29 years old.

Eventually, I left the bookstore, and it ended up being a really big change for me.

My mom is doing much better, thankfully. They caught her cancer before it progressed to a later stage, and I’m incredibly grateful for that.

Love, Engagement, and Everything In Between ❤️

Well… your girl is no longer single!

After all these years of boys being boys, I finally met someone who genuinely wants me in his life.

We started dating in late spring of 2021, and then, in July 2025, we got engaged in San Diego!!!

Definitely God's timing. ❤️

Of course, life hasn’t been all happy moments.

We also lost both of our grandmothers around the same period, between 2024 and 2025. 

Their deaths also happened around the time of our San Diego trip, which is one of the reasons that trip didn’t go as planned.

There’s a lot more to that story, so I’ll probably have to make another post about it.

Health, Accidents, and More Changes

I also went through three car accidents in one year.

Thankfully, I’m okay. I’ve dealt with neck pain since then, and I’ve recently started seeing a chiropractor because I’m trying to get back to focusing on my health.

I also gained about 60 pounds since the car accident in 2021.

Now I’m trying to lose that weight—and hopefully a little more—for our Japan trip and our wedding in 2026/2027.

A Lot of Loss

Between my family and my fiancé’s family, we’ve experienced four deaths in the family.

We also lost a neighbor who was very kind to my fiancé and had become almost like a friend to him. He died by suicide, and my fiancé struggled with feeling like he could have somehow prevented it.

On top of all that, we’ve dealt with losing jobs, trying to find a place to live, financial struggles, and many other problems.

We’ve been through a LOT.

And honestly, we’re still battling some of those problems today.

So… What’s Next?

I could keep going, but I think I might have to save the rest for another post. 😂

Hopefully, I can actually keep up with blogging this time!

I’m sorry it took me so long to post here. Life really got away from me, but I’m hoping to change that.

I might also be getting into some online streaming soon! I finally got into D&D with my besties, so there will hopefully be plenty of nerdy content coming your way.

Stay tuned for more nerdy stuff! 🎲✨

And don’t forget to follow me on my other social media! The links are available on the “Follow Me” tab. ☺️

Thanks for sticking around and catching up with me!

Until next time! ❤️

New Me, New Year!

Hello everyone, :)

I'm back so here's a quick update:

• I passed my two Art classes: Intro to Printmaking and 3D design class
• Got a seasonal job at Forever 21
• Also turned 25 years old
  All Hail the Capricorns!!!! 

I hope everyone had a great Holiday!!!!!!!

So I had a busy month already as well coming up, going to back to work at the Bookstore and classes are about to start soon. I got to make sure I give my self a little bit of time for myself as well to do art assignments. I'm going to be taking Lithography, Color Theory, and African Arts: Form,Perf,Affect. I'm so excited to start classes and see what this new year as or me.

speaking of the new me, the fact I turned 25, I wanted to treat myself with free stuff well I went to Sephora and got my skincare product that I tried and loved as well bought a set for a value deal from a sample I was given during my first visit. I got my cleanser: 

• boscia (Detoxifying Black Cleanser) 

I ended up getting a Free Birthday Gift:

•  tarte BIRTHDAY GIFT Tarte Lip and Cheek Set

Came back for this product the next day:

• a value kit for $25 it was a travel size of:
• Origins GinZing™ Energy-Boosting Moisturizer
• Origins High Potency Night-A-Mins™ Mineral-Enriched Renewal Cream

So That's all I wanted to Share to everyone what been updated before the New Year of 2017.

How was your Holiday?
What special gift did you end up getting for yourself?
Are you a Capricorn?

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From the Following Update of my Pervious Post

So from my pervious post on my update about how I was stressing out and wanted to change my degree and so on. Turns out the Career Counselor was no help at all, basically expressing the vibe to be that I must be very stubborn? Well, I had a sarcasm moment to my self-saying “That was helpful.” She was trying to grasp of what I’m into but I have way to much experience as well as what seemed to be interesting that I could do. Overall, the result was change your mange that could cause myself to stay in college longer or find a job before I could finish my degree and that might help me. With my disorder/disability makes it harder because I don’t if I can do it, that’s part of my stubbornness. After all the stressing, I still had no idea what to do. I told my mom all about it, she agrees that I’m way to stubborn and proud that I’m way to experience, but she believes that I could finish my degree with I high hopes. Well at this point no matter how much no one understands, I’m failing this one class I need to pass to move on in the degree program (sociology), I asked my advisor and he said I could still graduate in Fall 2015. So I explained that I might have to retake this class but I would have only two more classes and two more for the elective also one more for my minor. That brought my hopes up to know I almost done, however,  I still need: internships and a job that I could be happy about to work for right after I graduate even if involves moving.
That is another problem I am worried about, moving away for work and not know if I would still have friends and/or if they would support me on the move and still stay contact possible visit each other.
All I know is I really going to try even harder to make sure my degree comes before everything, and time management like I use to. I stopped because I wasn’t sure where and what to do with it in my room at home compare how I had it in the dorm at my freshmen pervious university.
Tonight (11/29), I just emailed my professor on the a paper I'm interested to do after the past week I could figure out what topic for the survey, so now I am going to clean my room. My mom is trying to do some Winter cleaning (Spring cleaning but during the Winter season), plus would help bring some peace in the house before the New Year.
My said I could rearrange my room because she has a gift for my room, so that means upgrade my room for a mature look, organize everything from closet to room, and clean out my room to be clean. So might help me distress and find a way to set up my study/ time management. That’s what I’m about to do, hopefully  I can get the answer from my professor telling me that I finally got it or I’m still going to so feel even more dumber.  

My College Update, Fall Term 2014!

Well, what a year I have been just stressing out back and forth, and having melt downs as well. For the first time my stress got to me so bad, I had a minor rash, horrible margin, mood swing, and noticing some grey hair (I'm only 22 years old about to turn 23yrs old in Dec 23rd.)
*mentioning of prayer is based on the religious belief my family and friends are in(Catholic/Christians),and same-time I also believe things happen for a reason. I respect and understand other beliefs, you can replace the meaning to what you practice/belief*

This Fall I had a exciting view for myself to finish all my classes with a passing grade and improve myself on the way to be more mature about my lifestyle, now that I'm working part-time and a quick cash side work as a club promoter.
Well everything was going okay, notice that the DRC (Disability Resource Center) could not get a hold of a note taker for me, which means I am screwed. Meanwhile I was had to try to study with what I could take notes of which was only what I could comprehend. I have this one class that's is the first class I need for my Major Degree Program in Sociology, However, I took this class back in the Spring Term 2014 and failed it. Now well lets just say I am in that same struggle boat.
Same Professor and everything, I study the best I could and well grade wise wasn't so well, but better than what I did back in Spring. I know I had a few faults because I procrastinated but also I couldn't comprehend what do to for most of the homework with my disability, and not having help with tutoring and paper revises like I had when I was in the State/Community College. I even applied for a note taker, unfortunately the school don't hire note taker like they did at the community college, they just ask if anyone in the class I am in if anyone wants to volunteer, which no ones would unless the disability of person could not take their own notes. Now because I know I have no hope in passing this class, my other classes are getting affected too. 
Its like just when I thought I had everything handled and settle, I somehow screwed up. My mom notice that I'm stressing out more and more has the time ticks down to almost finals. She worries that my health is getting affected from all the stress and trying what I can with my disability to pass just one class before other classes. She said she'll support me no matter what, thou she sacrifice to help finical with me, so I could finish college. I even have few friends and family as well as my mom to pray that something better would work out for me.
Well after so much stress and trying not to make the same mistake I done back in Stetson. After class today (November 24th, 2014), just before our Thanksgiving Break (which I still have class work to do, bummer), She asked how I was doing in class (the hardest that I have been stressing about,) I told her that I so done and stressed out about this I know my grade is a another fail. She was shock because not only this is her first semester as a transfer student but that the I had taken the class before and still no improvement. She said why stress on a major that your not achieving, I changed my major for next term after this class too, You should go check out the Career Center to help you. I went there last week because there is no way, I could use this major in something I know more about. I worked in the Hospitality business since I was 16 and I'm almost in my mid 30s because I worked to save up for college. I went in did this career interest test and talked about my skills and what I know as well what I would I like to learn more about to improve my passion/life. So they helped me change my major to _so and so__ since its similar to Hospitality Management but they don't have it as a major. Since you have very great social networking skills and you know more of what events going on in the city as well your working for a nightclub that had performs of famous musicians also you know most local musicians in the city and go to festivals/events. maybe they could help you find a career path towards that because again why Stress over something you stuck again when you can change for what you know and accomplish that faster and your grade/gpa would be exactly where you want. also you would want to study on it more because its want your interested not what you enjoy to read during your down time. Like I was into sociology major because of what I found interest during my down time but now I notice, I could major in what I'm already doing and still enjoy sociological article reading during my down time. Some people are great at their major because the already have the eye on what they want to be, rather like us it takes one stressed out class to make us realize oops.
Good Luck and let me know if they helped you out and what have you decided on.
After all the stressing, the crying, and sleepless nights I gone through; it suddenly hit me after what she said this might be the answer I have been needing. Right when we parted our ways, I went straight to the career center, set my appointment, and nervous as I was yet excited that this is the change I been needing. Hopefully this does solve my problem and could have my path to finish college with a degree and enjoy my life.
Beside other personal problems I am going through, I really praying and wanting this to be the sunlight to my horrible storm. If this works out for me and everything goes smoothly with the school, I decided to do some improvements to myself meaning I am going to be more mature about my lifestyle since I'll be 23yrs old in Dec 23rd. That means when Next Year hits and the new Spring term begins, I'm going to have to: manage my time better, know when to yes or no to things, if I have a question no matter how stupid I know I may sound ask or  ask during office hours( I was planning on doing but the hours were during my work and/or class hours), have time for myself (like go for a walk, read a non-class reading book, visit friends, have lunch/brunch with my mom/friends, or even a night out non club related like n the weekends. Speaking of nightclub promoting, they are very supportive that I'm in college and I only do their Wednesday and Friday night, which is no biggie because I can leave after guest list ends and find out if I get pay or not then leave. Still I would tell them the heads up so I don't have to wait in the back room till they get done with a meeting with whoever.
I will soon what I do want to improve myself since I am getting older because I need to grow up but I can be myself just 23yrs old. So stay tune for that and other post I will be posting soon.

Have you ever gone through anything like I have gone though? let me know down below in the comments.

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