Back again, Did you miss me?

 Hi friend,

Where and how would should I start this blog because so much happened since well last I saw my post on here was 2019. Wow, like I had so much going on since my post that I wish I could have kept up with my blogging, I'll try to make it somewhat easy to catch up on:
2020 was a wild year we had (pretty everyone reading this knows) the COVID Pandemic. 

2019 late: Best friend who got married gotten divorced: he cheated on her and was caught. 
Current update on her: She's still working in corrections, as one more semester left in Radiation Therapy program (I'm so proud of her). She just told me recently that her new boyfriend and her are doing well and moving in. Don't worry I got to meet him and I really like him for her and he's way way way better like God send to her vs her exes/ ex-husband. I'm so happy for her :)

2019: Might be going to grad school after finishing my BFA in Art. or Join the Air Force as an Officer
Current update: No grad school. no officer. I currently work in the parts department of a dealership, I started mid-pandemic due to the bookstore was about to have a fall and I wasn't going to have a future there anyways. I like my job started as a porter (thanks to a friend/tech that got me a job here), and later with moral support I was able to step up ask to apply for parts position opened up (I was upset that he was let go and was not at fault over some other coworker drama). Here I am almost 5yrs in and Top of my parts team. I was planning on leaving because I wanted to do something better and more $$. I make good money like enough to be stabled but it's all paying loans and debt basically (trying).  I was thinking about going to into 2 different fields medical or coding, we'll see because some changes is happening here. if it gets to much for me to handle because it's stressful that affects pay vs working with hours (I work commission but it relays on others to finish the work vs hourly. 

2019: Wanted to go further with art like grad school for art in medicine or something but I realize it wasn't for me as much it would be nice to go for. I wanted to perfect my art because going though my degree was more a loop hole as well a stressful stress relief. (does that make sense?) . 
Update: I miss doing art, now if I was to do art it would more like a stress relief or hobby (which I learned more watching Tiktok, Instagram, and YouTube now too). 

2019: Re-educate myself. I felt like I was going dumb because I've been out of touch on a lot happening as well my math, grammar, other school subjects has been fading away in my memory. I wanted to learn from you tube or old school books just to refresh and keep my mind educated and well. I know this world is full of people who are grammar Nazi and some who a very poor in grammar. Someone like with a learning disability I felt like i wasn't challenged or educated well in school so college was a struggle. that's why I wanted to try to re-educate myself just to be at a good mental more mature mind. 
Update:   Still haven't tried lol. I'm doing some what better with just everyday work and life trying to learn and comprehend better. I even bought a book to read and i never made pass the 1st chapter. now I recently got the kindle app on my phone with audible to read and listen. I wanted a kindle but i told myself not until I read 10 books total (might even write a summery to share with my besties (they love reading). 

2019: Wanted to vlog for YouTube because I thought I would have more time to since I would just be working and living life. 
Update: Wrong I could have vlog but omg way to much even during the pandemic happen. I wanted a fun life instead I'm still struggle with a lot mental and finical. Was supposed to vlog our trip to San Diego Comic Con trip, that was a fail and that's another post I will have to do (hopefully). In 2026 October we are planning to go on our Japan trip and hopefully I have vlogging and photos read for the trip.

During the pandemic my mom was very lucky to have her breast cancer surgery just before Covid started like I two a week of FMLA to help my mom and then came back to work to be told 3 weeks later we are furloughed due to Covid pandemic for a few months. that how I finally took the job to be a porter ( it wasn't to bad and made way more money too {sadly it was my first fulltime time job for someone who was 29}). left the bookstore and was a good big change. I felt like now that I've been in parts I feel like I know what I am capable of.  She's doing a lot better thankfully they caught before it was a stage. 
We'll your girl is no longer single after all these years of boys being boys, I finally met someone who wants me in their life. 
Of course our Grandmothers died within  the same year too204-2025. both grandmas from our father side happen during our trip to San Diego. that's why the trip wasn't not going as plan. more to it than that.
We started dating back in 2021 late  spring and now we are engaged back in July 2025 in San Diego!!!

Definitely God's timing too.

 
I went through 3 car accidents in one year, I'm okay just neck pain but seeing a chiropractor recently now to get back in my health life. I even gained 60lbs since the car accident 2021. 
Trying to lose that and a few more too for the Japan 2026/ 2027wedding  
 4 deaths in the family between mine and my fiancé, 1 death of a neighbor who was so nice to my fiancé like a friend (He committed suicided, which my fiancé felt like he could have prevent it). 
We went though a lot even losing jobs, finding a place to live, no money. 
We are still battling our problems. 

I could go on but I might have to another post. Hopefully I keep up with blogging. Sorry, I took so long to post here. 
Also I might be getting into some online streaming soon as well I finally got into D&D with my besties.  stay tune for more nerdy stuff. 

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It a New Year and a New Me! 2016

Hey y’all I’m back

I know it been a while since I posted but here’s what’s up with my life even now that it’s the new year (btw Happy Belated Year of 2016!!!!!). So since I started my new semester at UNF as an Art student in the Fine Art major, I finished with two C’s (not bad passing wise, but I wished I could’ve of gotten B’s),  working crazy hours at my retail job as a Sales Lead Manager (I never hated the Holidays more working for it). If I had little less crazy from work and got more flexible with my classes I would have been okay, at least I passed and the school okayed me to stay in the program (even though I was supposed to get B’s to raise my GPA), and I am now taking Art History 2 online and Drawing 2.  I really got to focus on raising my GPA because it’s now a 1.09 (yay!):

So I started UNF from FSCJ with a 2.8 GPA, after Spring, Summer, and Fall semesters of having hard time with classes (failed most but passed a couple with C’s) when I was in Sociology major minoring in Urban studies which ended later so I had to take History as my new minor. My GPA dropped to a .94; which I thought it was insane ended up suspended for the spring semester, however due to my disability, many paper works, meetings with advisors, and the biggest help of from my favorite Career counselor, the school allow me back to a new major that accepted me. Normally the Deans of each Academic department wouldn’t allow those who are that deep in the struggles of GPA, but I had a feeling the dean saw something within me, they even don’t allow suspended student especially since the Art and Music are the Strictest in our school (to me though I don’t blame them).

I’m really making such I getting B’s (obviously I want A’s), as long I keep up with my project/homework and doing to the work. My job is a bit time consuming but if dint have especially with the pay I’m getting I wouldn’t be able to afford my classes/supplies or even commute to class. Now I’m in art I trying to discover my career path, my retail job is like an open door for: Sales, Marketing, Advertising, Management, Interior Designing, and Stylist. I was trying to have more of a fun yet get to be openly creative to what where I would get to work at. I’ve been looking towards working in the fashion field, I know right, not to many people know me but I use to collect all of Seventeen magazine and even look at others for the Fashion trends, styling tips, even got some advice from my mother since she a fashionista herself (she might know all about the fashion world but dressing up is no joke to my mom. Her closet of her fabulous clothes from her when she was in her 20’s til 2008 (she had her brain tumor and gain some weight from the recovery, she survived it)). I always had such interest in fashion, I might not like some of the girls I know who gets all dressed up and wears make up from known brands, and I’m a bit in my own style trend. I never know my exact “stereotype” of my fashion trend, I like to just make whatever I own work out and be very comfortable for the mood. I could write another blog on this. LOL

Back to the point, I couldn’t believe that how much I really enjoy art. I get so into it that I know I can’t cheat around or bullshit on my art piece because everyone could see it. I even get excited to try other art practices such as ceramic, sculpting, printmaking, even want to try to get photography in my elective. Like in my other many majors I’ve been in I would either get bored or find no point in the purpose for it to be taught. In art I notice that everyone in my class has to draw the same casting but they all have different technique of their own, unlike in my other majors someone paper could be exactly like my just worded differently or had better writing. I know it only the first 2weeks of the semester but I really can’t wait to see my drawing turns out in the end as well my interest in Art history. Speaking of art history, my first professor from Art history 1, she told us how she had a student who was a business major and need credits for his international business course, so after taking her for Art history 1 and 2, and later graduated. He ended landing a job because the Company owner/ceo or manger (he’s boss), has an interest in art that he collects them and even travel world to visit sites. He had a little conversation about their favorite period of art that he ended getting hired and would get invited to art events. Talk about amazing. I even have a Doctor ( in the military hospital, my doctors got deployed, some of them do get deployed or they are lucky to settle) who as such interest in art his wife is an artist and has a mini art gallery in his office (he wants one of my art to be in his galley when I come back for an appointment). Being in art, I notice that I see everything even more interesting in the values it holds, I usually like to stare at things and say things, but in art it’s like I learn to know “why I like it” not just “I like it” it like I have to go deeper. It really amazing it like they say “a picture has a 1000 words.”

Update in my Life: Almost 24years old

Hello its been so long since I last posted about my update in life.

if you haven't read it go back to my posts to catch up, meantime here's a rundown of what happened:

• Deciding between Majors
• I ended up getting accept in Art Major: Drawing, Painting, and Print Making Major of the Fine Arts here in UNF ( University of North Florida in Jacksonville, Florida) 
• I'm currently taking 2D design class and Art History part 1 (yes, I'm taking only 2 classes. I'm use to taking 4 classes since I started college, but for the Art major and due to my Suspension (I am required to take 2 classes every semester, make a B grade average or higher to continue the UNF, and my Job is taking up to many hours of my week) 
• Getting a Job
• I got a job in retail so going from Sales associate of the UNF Bookstore, I'm now a Sales Lead Manager of Aèropostale.
• I like my job however its way to many hours of my week that its hard for me (personally) to keep up with my Art. I work 30 hours a week which is not bad but try to work on your art projects that require atleast 5-10hours of your time to perfect it.

I am happy that I got the opportunity to have this job and getting accept in the Art program when I've been suspended from UNF, its just I'm almost 24 years old I barely get a chance to enjoy myself with friends and have a relationship with a guy (still kinda single, just unsure where I'm at with this one guy I've been talking too) anyways my biggest decision is should I stay with my job or find another job even if its another part time to allow me to spend more time in my Art projects.
I thought of this one job that I got a call back from thou I already got the job I have now. Its one of those 8am-5pm jobs, and the guy who as a manger really wanted me to work there even as a Student. I don't know if I want to move on to that job, I already got my next semester classes set and I could still work there if they allow, however later I would have to take night classes for the rest of my classes to be finish with my degree.
Now about my major, I'm doing okay with my Art History class, but with my 2D is a struggle due to not spending time on working patiently with my projects, its all rushed and ugly.
I'll let y'all know about the how I'm doing again in 2 weeks (end of the semester) to see if I stay in the Art program or not.

Have you been in a similar problem? How did you get through it? What is your advice? What do you think I should do?
Answer the questions don below in the comments, I'll try to respond back :)
Thanks for reading.