Back again, Did you miss me?

Hi, friends!

Where and how should I even start this blog post? So much has happened since the last time I posted here. I looked back and realized my last post was from 2019. Wow!

I’ve had so much going on since then, and I really wish I could have kept up with blogging. I’ll try to make this as easy as possible to catch up on everything that has happened over the years.

2019–2020: A Lot Happened!

Of course, 2020 was a wild year. Pretty much everyone reading this knows what happened: the COVID-19 pandemic.

But even before that, life was already changing.

My Best Friend

2019: My best friend, who had recently gotten married, ended up getting divorced. Her husband cheated on her and was caught.

Current update: She’s still working in corrections and has one more semester left in her Radiation Therapy program. I’m so proud of her!

She recently told me that she and her new boyfriend are doing well and are planning to move in together. Don’t worry—I’ve met him, and I really like him for her. He is way, way, way better for her. Honestly, I feel like he was a Godsend compared to her exes and ex-husband.

I’m so happy for her! ❤️

Career Changes

2019: I was thinking about going to graduate school after finishing my BFA in Art, or possibly joining the Air Force as an officer.

Current update: Well… no grad school and no Air Force officer career!

I currently work in the parts department of a dealership. I started there during the pandemic because the bookstore I was working at was struggling, and I knew I probably wasn’t going to have much of a future there anyway.

I actually really like my job. I originally started as a porter, thanks to a friend/technician who helped me get the job. Later, with some moral support, I worked up the courage to ask to apply for an open position in the parts department. Here I am, almost five years later, and I’m at the top of my parts team!

I had been thinking about leaving because I wanted to do something different and make more money. I make decent money now—enough to be stable—but most of it goes toward loans and debt, so I’m still trying to get ahead.

I’ve been thinking about possibly going into one of two different fields: healthcare or coding. We’ll see what happens because there are some changes happening at work right now.

If things become too much for me to handle, I may have to make a change. My job can be stressful because I work on commission, and my pay depends on other people finishing their work. It can be frustrating compared to having a steady hourly wage.

My Art

2019: I wanted to continue pursuing art, possibly even going to graduate school for something like Art in Medicine. I wanted to perfect my art because, looking back, getting through my art degree was kind of a loophole for me as well as a stressful form of relief.

Does that make sense?

Current update: I still miss doing art!

If I were to get back into art now, I think it would be more of a stress-relief activity or hobby rather than something I want to pursue as a career.

I’ve actually learned a lot more about art by watching TikTok, Instagram, and YouTube, too. There are so many talented artists and tutorials online now!

Re-Educating Myself

2019: I wanted to re-educate myself.

I felt like I was getting rusty because I had been out of school for a while and was forgetting a lot of things I had learned. My math, grammar, and other school subjects were slowly fading from my memory. I wanted to use YouTube and old-school textbooks to refresh my knowledge and keep my mind educated.

I know there are plenty of people out there who are grammar Nazis, while others struggle with grammar. As someone with a learning disability, I’ve always felt like I wasn’t challenged or educated as well as I could have been in school, which made college a struggle for me. That’s why I wanted to re-educate myself—not necessarily to become some genius, but just to feel more mentally mature, knowledgeable, and confident.

Current update: Still haven’t really tried. LOL.

I’m doing somewhat better just by dealing with everyday work and life and trying to learn and comprehend things better. I even bought a book to read, but I never made it past the first chapter. 😂

Recently, I downloaded the Kindle app on my phone and started using Audible so I can read and listen at the same time. I really wanted an actual Kindle, but I told myself I’m not allowed to buy one until I’ve read 10 books total. I might even write summaries and share them with my besties because they love reading!

YouTube and Vlogging

2019: I wanted to start vlogging on YouTube because I thought I would have more time once I was just working and living life.

Current update: LOL. WRONG.

I probably could have vlogged, but there was just way too much going on—even during the pandemic. 

I wanted to have a fun life, but instead, I was still struggling with a lot of mental and financial issues. I was supposed to vlog our trip to San Diego Comic-Con, but that was a complete fail. That trip deserves its own post because there is a lot more to that story. Hopefully, I’ll actually write it!

In October 2026, we’re planning to go to Japan, and hopefully I’ll have my vlogging and photography stuff ready for the trip.

The Pandemic and My Mom

During the pandemic, my mom was very lucky because she was able to have her breast cancer surgery right before COVID really started affecting everything.

I took about two weeks of FMLA to help take care of her. Then I went back to work, only to find out about three weeks later that we were being furloughed because of the COVID pandemic.

That’s how I ended up taking the job as a porter.

It honestly wasn’t too bad, and I made way more money than I expected. Sadly, it was also my first full-time job at 29 years old.

Eventually, I left the bookstore, and it ended up being a really big change for me.

My mom is doing much better, thankfully. They caught her cancer before it progressed to a later stage, and I’m incredibly grateful for that.

Love, Engagement, and Everything In Between ❤️

Well… your girl is no longer single!

After all these years of boys being boys, I finally met someone who genuinely wants me in his life.

We started dating in late spring of 2021, and then, in July 2025, we got engaged in San Diego!!!

Definitely God's timing. ❤️

Of course, life hasn’t been all happy moments.

We also lost both of our grandmothers around the same period, between 2024 and 2025. 

Their deaths also happened around the time of our San Diego trip, which is one of the reasons that trip didn’t go as planned.

There’s a lot more to that story, so I’ll probably have to make another post about it.

Health, Accidents, and More Changes

I also went through three car accidents in one year.

Thankfully, I’m okay. I’ve dealt with neck pain since then, and I’ve recently started seeing a chiropractor because I’m trying to get back to focusing on my health.

I also gained about 60 pounds since the car accident in 2021.

Now I’m trying to lose that weight—and hopefully a little more—for our Japan trip and our wedding in 2026/2027.

A Lot of Loss

Between my family and my fiancé’s family, we’ve experienced four deaths in the family.

We also lost a neighbor who was very kind to my fiancé and had become almost like a friend to him. He died by suicide, and my fiancé struggled with feeling like he could have somehow prevented it.

On top of all that, we’ve dealt with losing jobs, trying to find a place to live, financial struggles, and many other problems.

We’ve been through a LOT.

And honestly, we’re still battling some of those problems today.

So… What’s Next?

I could keep going, but I think I might have to save the rest for another post. 😂

Hopefully, I can actually keep up with blogging this time!

I’m sorry it took me so long to post here. Life really got away from me, but I’m hoping to change that.

I might also be getting into some online streaming soon! I finally got into D&D with my besties, so there will hopefully be plenty of nerdy content coming your way.

Stay tuned for more nerdy stuff! 🎲✨

And don’t forget to follow me on my other social media! The links are available on the “Follow Me” tab. ☺️

Thanks for sticking around and catching up with me!

Until next time! ❤️

It a New Year and a New Me! 2016

Hey y’all I’m back

I know it been a while since I posted but here’s what’s up with my life even now that it’s the new year (btw Happy Belated Year of 2016!!!!!). So since I started my new semester at UNF as an Art student in the Fine Art major, I finished with two C’s (not bad passing wise, but I wished I could’ve of gotten B’s),  working crazy hours at my retail job as a Sales Lead Manager (I never hated the Holidays more working for it). If I had little less crazy from work and got more flexible with my classes I would have been okay, at least I passed and the school okayed me to stay in the program (even though I was supposed to get B’s to raise my GPA), and I am now taking Art History 2 online and Drawing 2.  I really got to focus on raising my GPA because it’s now a 1.09 (yay!):

So I started UNF from FSCJ with a 2.8 GPA, after Spring, Summer, and Fall semesters of having hard time with classes (failed most but passed a couple with C’s) when I was in Sociology major minoring in Urban studies which ended later so I had to take History as my new minor. My GPA dropped to a .94; which I thought it was insane ended up suspended for the spring semester, however due to my disability, many paper works, meetings with advisors, and the biggest help of from my favorite Career counselor, the school allow me back to a new major that accepted me. Normally the Deans of each Academic department wouldn’t allow those who are that deep in the struggles of GPA, but I had a feeling the dean saw something within me, they even don’t allow suspended student especially since the Art and Music are the Strictest in our school (to me though I don’t blame them).

I’m really making such I getting B’s (obviously I want A’s), as long I keep up with my project/homework and doing to the work. My job is a bit time consuming but if dint have especially with the pay I’m getting I wouldn’t be able to afford my classes/supplies or even commute to class. Now I’m in art I trying to discover my career path, my retail job is like an open door for: Sales, Marketing, Advertising, Management, Interior Designing, and Stylist. I was trying to have more of a fun yet get to be openly creative to what where I would get to work at. I’ve been looking towards working in the fashion field, I know right, not to many people know me but I use to collect all of Seventeen magazine and even look at others for the Fashion trends, styling tips, even got some advice from my mother since she a fashionista herself (she might know all about the fashion world but dressing up is no joke to my mom. Her closet of her fabulous clothes from her when she was in her 20’s til 2008 (she had her brain tumor and gain some weight from the recovery, she survived it)). I always had such interest in fashion, I might not like some of the girls I know who gets all dressed up and wears make up from known brands, and I’m a bit in my own style trend. I never know my exact “stereotype” of my fashion trend, I like to just make whatever I own work out and be very comfortable for the mood. I could write another blog on this. LOL

Back to the point, I couldn’t believe that how much I really enjoy art. I get so into it that I know I can’t cheat around or bullshit on my art piece because everyone could see it. I even get excited to try other art practices such as ceramic, sculpting, printmaking, even want to try to get photography in my elective. Like in my other many majors I’ve been in I would either get bored or find no point in the purpose for it to be taught. In art I notice that everyone in my class has to draw the same casting but they all have different technique of their own, unlike in my other majors someone paper could be exactly like my just worded differently or had better writing. I know it only the first 2weeks of the semester but I really can’t wait to see my drawing turns out in the end as well my interest in Art history. Speaking of art history, my first professor from Art history 1, she told us how she had a student who was a business major and need credits for his international business course, so after taking her for Art history 1 and 2, and later graduated. He ended landing a job because the Company owner/ceo or manger (he’s boss), has an interest in art that he collects them and even travel world to visit sites. He had a little conversation about their favorite period of art that he ended getting hired and would get invited to art events. Talk about amazing. I even have a Doctor ( in the military hospital, my doctors got deployed, some of them do get deployed or they are lucky to settle) who as such interest in art his wife is an artist and has a mini art gallery in his office (he wants one of my art to be in his galley when I come back for an appointment). Being in art, I notice that I see everything even more interesting in the values it holds, I usually like to stare at things and say things, but in art it’s like I learn to know “why I like it” not just “I like it” it like I have to go deeper. It really amazing it like they say “a picture has a 1000 words.”

Update in my Life: Almost 24years old

Hello its been so long since I last posted about my update in life.

if you haven't read it go back to my posts to catch up, meantime here's a rundown of what happened:

• Deciding between Majors
• I ended up getting accept in Art Major: Drawing, Painting, and Print Making Major of the Fine Arts here in UNF ( University of North Florida in Jacksonville, Florida) 
• I'm currently taking 2D design class and Art History part 1 (yes, I'm taking only 2 classes. I'm use to taking 4 classes since I started college, but for the Art major and due to my Suspension (I am required to take 2 classes every semester, make a B grade average or higher to continue the UNF, and my Job is taking up to many hours of my week) 
• Getting a Job
• I got a job in retail so going from Sales associate of the UNF Bookstore, I'm now a Sales Lead Manager of Aèropostale.
• I like my job however its way to many hours of my week that its hard for me (personally) to keep up with my Art. I work 30 hours a week which is not bad but try to work on your art projects that require atleast 5-10hours of your time to perfect it.

I am happy that I got the opportunity to have this job and getting accept in the Art program when I've been suspended from UNF, its just I'm almost 24 years old I barely get a chance to enjoy myself with friends and have a relationship with a guy (still kinda single, just unsure where I'm at with this one guy I've been talking too) anyways my biggest decision is should I stay with my job or find another job even if its another part time to allow me to spend more time in my Art projects.
I thought of this one job that I got a call back from thou I already got the job I have now. Its one of those 8am-5pm jobs, and the guy who as a manger really wanted me to work there even as a Student. I don't know if I want to move on to that job, I already got my next semester classes set and I could still work there if they allow, however later I would have to take night classes for the rest of my classes to be finish with my degree.
Now about my major, I'm doing okay with my Art History class, but with my 2D is a struggle due to not spending time on working patiently with my projects, its all rushed and ugly.
I'll let y'all know about the how I'm doing again in 2 weeks (end of the semester) to see if I stay in the Art program or not.

Have you been in a similar problem? How did you get through it? What is your advice? What do you think I should do?
Answer the questions don below in the comments, I'll try to respond back :)
Thanks for reading.