It a New Year and a New Me! 2016

Hey y’all I’m back

I know it been a while since I posted but here’s what’s up with my life even now that it’s the new year (btw Happy Belated Year of 2016!!!!!). So since I started my new semester at UNF as an Art student in the Fine Art major, I finished with two C’s (not bad passing wise, but I wished I could’ve of gotten B’s),  working crazy hours at my retail job as a Sales Lead Manager (I never hated the Holidays more working for it). If I had little less crazy from work and got more flexible with my classes I would have been okay, at least I passed and the school okayed me to stay in the program (even though I was supposed to get B’s to raise my GPA), and I am now taking Art History 2 online and Drawing 2.  I really got to focus on raising my GPA because it’s now a 1.09 (yay!):

So I started UNF from FSCJ with a 2.8 GPA, after Spring, Summer, and Fall semesters of having hard time with classes (failed most but passed a couple with C’s) when I was in Sociology major minoring in Urban studies which ended later so I had to take History as my new minor. My GPA dropped to a .94; which I thought it was insane ended up suspended for the spring semester, however due to my disability, many paper works, meetings with advisors, and the biggest help of from my favorite Career counselor, the school allow me back to a new major that accepted me. Normally the Deans of each Academic department wouldn’t allow those who are that deep in the struggles of GPA, but I had a feeling the dean saw something within me, they even don’t allow suspended student especially since the Art and Music are the Strictest in our school (to me though I don’t blame them).

I’m really making such I getting B’s (obviously I want A’s), as long I keep up with my project/homework and doing to the work. My job is a bit time consuming but if dint have especially with the pay I’m getting I wouldn’t be able to afford my classes/supplies or even commute to class. Now I’m in art I trying to discover my career path, my retail job is like an open door for: Sales, Marketing, Advertising, Management, Interior Designing, and Stylist. I was trying to have more of a fun yet get to be openly creative to what where I would get to work at. I’ve been looking towards working in the fashion field, I know right, not to many people know me but I use to collect all of Seventeen magazine and even look at others for the Fashion trends, styling tips, even got some advice from my mother since she a fashionista herself (she might know all about the fashion world but dressing up is no joke to my mom. Her closet of her fabulous clothes from her when she was in her 20’s til 2008 (she had her brain tumor and gain some weight from the recovery, she survived it)). I always had such interest in fashion, I might not like some of the girls I know who gets all dressed up and wears make up from known brands, and I’m a bit in my own style trend. I never know my exact “stereotype” of my fashion trend, I like to just make whatever I own work out and be very comfortable for the mood. I could write another blog on this. LOL

Back to the point, I couldn’t believe that how much I really enjoy art. I get so into it that I know I can’t cheat around or bullshit on my art piece because everyone could see it. I even get excited to try other art practices such as ceramic, sculpting, printmaking, even want to try to get photography in my elective. Like in my other many majors I’ve been in I would either get bored or find no point in the purpose for it to be taught. In art I notice that everyone in my class has to draw the same casting but they all have different technique of their own, unlike in my other majors someone paper could be exactly like my just worded differently or had better writing. I know it only the first 2weeks of the semester but I really can’t wait to see my drawing turns out in the end as well my interest in Art history. Speaking of art history, my first professor from Art history 1, she told us how she had a student who was a business major and need credits for his international business course, so after taking her for Art history 1 and 2, and later graduated. He ended landing a job because the Company owner/ceo or manger (he’s boss), has an interest in art that he collects them and even travel world to visit sites. He had a little conversation about their favorite period of art that he ended getting hired and would get invited to art events. Talk about amazing. I even have a Doctor ( in the military hospital, my doctors got deployed, some of them do get deployed or they are lucky to settle) who as such interest in art his wife is an artist and has a mini art gallery in his office (he wants one of my art to be in his galley when I come back for an appointment). Being in art, I notice that I see everything even more interesting in the values it holds, I usually like to stare at things and say things, but in art it’s like I learn to know “why I like it” not just “I like it” it like I have to go deeper. It really amazing it like they say “a picture has a 1000 words.”

Update: I had a very long Spring Break

Oh my goodness, its been to long since I wrote anything in this blog of mine. Well, I'm back *haha*
I have been extremely hustling and resting this Spring, you might be wondering, are you taking any classes? This semester (Spring Term) I was allowed to take any classes. What? Really? How?
Well I ended up getting suspended for this Spring semester because of my failing attempts that domino from when I transferred to the University last Spring till just this past Fall. I pasted a few of my classes however the main reason was my 1st Core class out the four I would need for my Bachelor program in Sociology, I couldn't past the class even on my second attempt.

I could blame the fact that I wasn't getting the help I requested due to the fact I have a learning disability, as well as my professor has an ego that we should be up to his standard of a college student. Another reason could be I was pushing myself hard enough however I didn't feel passionate to push myself to go outside the box of understanding/studying for my classes. I had that feeling "why am I do this, if I love something I would be making myself go crazy to understand and push my limits to show that I could this and the benefits of getting a grade.

Further more of the reason, I might of been to into the social environment, I before during my last summer for my A.A. classes, I made friend who enjoyed going to the nightlife. The different between her and I, She been the social party girl and knows how to balance that, work, and school; Me on the other hand, I never club nor gone to the bars before (I've only gone to club back in my freshmen year at my very old college but maybe 6 times of that year just to dance after an exam/birthday). I never gone to the local clubs here in the city or to the bars since I finally turned 21 at the time. Since the couple of times I gone out with her after the semester and especially during her birthday night (never drank a lot before also learned to never mix drink), We are still good friends till this day and I'm not blaming her for anything at all, I thank her though for introducing me to the city socialize people from Big Djs, model, owners, etc.. talk about social networking.
Since I transferred to UNF while she was still finishing getting her A.A I met a few people from the club and school, been going almost every club night or Bar night (no drinking) to keep the social. OMG, I got caught to being really social it insane, now I trying to make it a strict rule for myself: only go to the club when its a Birthday, GNO, or Performance; Bars on some weekends with friends that way we all can go when we all have a night/weekend off. Being 23 now, I not going to lie but I got to experience the 18 or 21 year life I couldn't get to enjoy. Not going to lie I learned a lot about socializing with people it was like a social experiment.

The last reason, I started working as well right when I transferred to UNF, I work at the bookstore on campus and later on promoter for the club just to get extra cash. I never had to work when I was getting my A.A. degree so I had time to focus in my classes. However, the classes I was taking were to difficult to study ( I have a very poor study habit since I left high school). The same time this is my first actual job, I had work before and got my paycheck but all I done was set up and take down, and keep score for the intermural sports at Stetson. Here at the bookstore, I never thought I could work casher, retail, online orders, as well textbooks all in one. Since I have been working I notice that it took time from my studies, plus the fact both school and work are a 1 hour commute from my house. Now that I am not taking a semester of classes I just work however, they cut hours so I only work 2days a week which is ridicules for a 1hr commute.

The suspension didn't go the way I thought, I had to fill out an appeal to get back in the program as well back to UNF, they denied me from the Sociology. :(

I already talk to a Career Counselor to help figure out a major that would be best for me. She was Amazing, I believe I mention all about this experiences in my last blog post. Anyways, she suggested Art Major, she took art as a major and her husband was in the same boat too, it was nice that someone who not only been on the same boat o what to major in but the fact her husband had a similar struggle with his major before changing to Art. She believe I could express more and why not have a major where all you do is color, draw, paint, and play around with ceramic. Well because I got denied from Sociology, my new Sociology felt bad and she wants be to have great college experience and finish happy and prove myself to a successful life, she knew I talked to the counselor about art she wanted me to Appeal back in for Art in the mean time I already met the Art Advisor and He believe this would be amazing for me, he helped me every way to make sure I get in.

I was told by my Career Counselor, I should go to the Career Fair to get a good experience in a Job opportunity, turned out the first only job that was really excited to want me was Aeropostale, I was shocked, and have also of thinking to do because I would have to leave my bookstore job for them. Same time I was concern about the appeal, so I had a back up plan, as always in order to hustle in my Life. I went to my college where I got my A.A. degree, to apply for the Management Bachelor degree. I still have more paperwork to turn in since I still live at home with my mom (talk about great benefits though).

Well I sent my Appeal and He email me back 2days later to say he was excited to tell me that I got accepted for the Art program. The great thing about taking art was I took drawing 1 class already for my A.A. elective class and I had so much fun and got a B+, I never thought m drawings would be graded that high. I am really nervous about this change in my life and having to realize that I'm 23 years old abut to become more adult to life. 

• Getting Accepted to the Fine Art major
• Got a job offer for Aeropostale
• Having Great close friends to be with and all are pressuring to reach for their career. No matter if they are married, far or near, they are the best supporters.

For now I'm still hustling everything before I have to let go of a lot of things and take dive in to the deep end. Goodbye 3ft deep pool, Hello 8ft deep pool. *Haha*

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Have you ever been through a change like this?

Have you ever had to realize its time to work hard/study hard for what you want?
Ever change a College major, from what to what?
What College/University do you go too?

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My College Update, Fall Term 2014!

Well, what a year I have been just stressing out back and forth, and having melt downs as well. For the first time my stress got to me so bad, I had a minor rash, horrible margin, mood swing, and noticing some grey hair (I'm only 22 years old about to turn 23yrs old in Dec 23rd.)
*mentioning of prayer is based on the religious belief my family and friends are in(Catholic/Christians),and same-time I also believe things happen for a reason. I respect and understand other beliefs, you can replace the meaning to what you practice/belief*

This Fall I had a exciting view for myself to finish all my classes with a passing grade and improve myself on the way to be more mature about my lifestyle, now that I'm working part-time and a quick cash side work as a club promoter.
Well everything was going okay, notice that the DRC (Disability Resource Center) could not get a hold of a note taker for me, which means I am screwed. Meanwhile I was had to try to study with what I could take notes of which was only what I could comprehend. I have this one class that's is the first class I need for my Major Degree Program in Sociology, However, I took this class back in the Spring Term 2014 and failed it. Now well lets just say I am in that same struggle boat.
Same Professor and everything, I study the best I could and well grade wise wasn't so well, but better than what I did back in Spring. I know I had a few faults because I procrastinated but also I couldn't comprehend what do to for most of the homework with my disability, and not having help with tutoring and paper revises like I had when I was in the State/Community College. I even applied for a note taker, unfortunately the school don't hire note taker like they did at the community college, they just ask if anyone in the class I am in if anyone wants to volunteer, which no ones would unless the disability of person could not take their own notes. Now because I know I have no hope in passing this class, my other classes are getting affected too. 
Its like just when I thought I had everything handled and settle, I somehow screwed up. My mom notice that I'm stressing out more and more has the time ticks down to almost finals. She worries that my health is getting affected from all the stress and trying what I can with my disability to pass just one class before other classes. She said she'll support me no matter what, thou she sacrifice to help finical with me, so I could finish college. I even have few friends and family as well as my mom to pray that something better would work out for me.
Well after so much stress and trying not to make the same mistake I done back in Stetson. After class today (November 24th, 2014), just before our Thanksgiving Break (which I still have class work to do, bummer), She asked how I was doing in class (the hardest that I have been stressing about,) I told her that I so done and stressed out about this I know my grade is a another fail. She was shock because not only this is her first semester as a transfer student but that the I had taken the class before and still no improvement. She said why stress on a major that your not achieving, I changed my major for next term after this class too, You should go check out the Career Center to help you. I went there last week because there is no way, I could use this major in something I know more about. I worked in the Hospitality business since I was 16 and I'm almost in my mid 30s because I worked to save up for college. I went in did this career interest test and talked about my skills and what I know as well what I would I like to learn more about to improve my passion/life. So they helped me change my major to _so and so__ since its similar to Hospitality Management but they don't have it as a major. Since you have very great social networking skills and you know more of what events going on in the city as well your working for a nightclub that had performs of famous musicians also you know most local musicians in the city and go to festivals/events. maybe they could help you find a career path towards that because again why Stress over something you stuck again when you can change for what you know and accomplish that faster and your grade/gpa would be exactly where you want. also you would want to study on it more because its want your interested not what you enjoy to read during your down time. Like I was into sociology major because of what I found interest during my down time but now I notice, I could major in what I'm already doing and still enjoy sociological article reading during my down time. Some people are great at their major because the already have the eye on what they want to be, rather like us it takes one stressed out class to make us realize oops.
Good Luck and let me know if they helped you out and what have you decided on.
After all the stressing, the crying, and sleepless nights I gone through; it suddenly hit me after what she said this might be the answer I have been needing. Right when we parted our ways, I went straight to the career center, set my appointment, and nervous as I was yet excited that this is the change I been needing. Hopefully this does solve my problem and could have my path to finish college with a degree and enjoy my life.
Beside other personal problems I am going through, I really praying and wanting this to be the sunlight to my horrible storm. If this works out for me and everything goes smoothly with the school, I decided to do some improvements to myself meaning I am going to be more mature about my lifestyle since I'll be 23yrs old in Dec 23rd. That means when Next Year hits and the new Spring term begins, I'm going to have to: manage my time better, know when to yes or no to things, if I have a question no matter how stupid I know I may sound ask or  ask during office hours( I was planning on doing but the hours were during my work and/or class hours), have time for myself (like go for a walk, read a non-class reading book, visit friends, have lunch/brunch with my mom/friends, or even a night out non club related like n the weekends. Speaking of nightclub promoting, they are very supportive that I'm in college and I only do their Wednesday and Friday night, which is no biggie because I can leave after guest list ends and find out if I get pay or not then leave. Still I would tell them the heads up so I don't have to wait in the back room till they get done with a meeting with whoever.
I will soon what I do want to improve myself since I am getting older because I need to grow up but I can be myself just 23yrs old. So stay tune for that and other post I will be posting soon.

Have you ever gone through anything like I have gone though? let me know down below in the comments.