Update: I had a very long Spring Break

Oh my goodness, its been to long since I wrote anything in this blog of mine. Well, I'm back *haha*
I have been extremely hustling and resting this Spring, you might be wondering, are you taking any classes? This semester (Spring Term) I was allowed to take any classes. What? Really? How?
Well I ended up getting suspended for this Spring semester because of my failing attempts that domino from when I transferred to the University last Spring till just this past Fall. I pasted a few of my classes however the main reason was my 1st Core class out the four I would need for my Bachelor program in Sociology, I couldn't past the class even on my second attempt.

I could blame the fact that I wasn't getting the help I requested due to the fact I have a learning disability, as well as my professor has an ego that we should be up to his standard of a college student. Another reason could be I was pushing myself hard enough however I didn't feel passionate to push myself to go outside the box of understanding/studying for my classes. I had that feeling "why am I do this, if I love something I would be making myself go crazy to understand and push my limits to show that I could this and the benefits of getting a grade.

Further more of the reason, I might of been to into the social environment, I before during my last summer for my A.A. classes, I made friend who enjoyed going to the nightlife. The different between her and I, She been the social party girl and knows how to balance that, work, and school; Me on the other hand, I never club nor gone to the bars before (I've only gone to club back in my freshmen year at my very old college but maybe 6 times of that year just to dance after an exam/birthday). I never gone to the local clubs here in the city or to the bars since I finally turned 21 at the time. Since the couple of times I gone out with her after the semester and especially during her birthday night (never drank a lot before also learned to never mix drink), We are still good friends till this day and I'm not blaming her for anything at all, I thank her though for introducing me to the city socialize people from Big Djs, model, owners, etc.. talk about social networking.
Since I transferred to UNF while she was still finishing getting her A.A I met a few people from the club and school, been going almost every club night or Bar night (no drinking) to keep the social. OMG, I got caught to being really social it insane, now I trying to make it a strict rule for myself: only go to the club when its a Birthday, GNO, or Performance; Bars on some weekends with friends that way we all can go when we all have a night/weekend off. Being 23 now, I not going to lie but I got to experience the 18 or 21 year life I couldn't get to enjoy. Not going to lie I learned a lot about socializing with people it was like a social experiment.

The last reason, I started working as well right when I transferred to UNF, I work at the bookstore on campus and later on promoter for the club just to get extra cash. I never had to work when I was getting my A.A. degree so I had time to focus in my classes. However, the classes I was taking were to difficult to study ( I have a very poor study habit since I left high school). The same time this is my first actual job, I had work before and got my paycheck but all I done was set up and take down, and keep score for the intermural sports at Stetson. Here at the bookstore, I never thought I could work casher, retail, online orders, as well textbooks all in one. Since I have been working I notice that it took time from my studies, plus the fact both school and work are a 1 hour commute from my house. Now that I am not taking a semester of classes I just work however, they cut hours so I only work 2days a week which is ridicules for a 1hr commute.

The suspension didn't go the way I thought, I had to fill out an appeal to get back in the program as well back to UNF, they denied me from the Sociology. :(

I already talk to a Career Counselor to help figure out a major that would be best for me. She was Amazing, I believe I mention all about this experiences in my last blog post. Anyways, she suggested Art Major, she took art as a major and her husband was in the same boat too, it was nice that someone who not only been on the same boat o what to major in but the fact her husband had a similar struggle with his major before changing to Art. She believe I could express more and why not have a major where all you do is color, draw, paint, and play around with ceramic. Well because I got denied from Sociology, my new Sociology felt bad and she wants be to have great college experience and finish happy and prove myself to a successful life, she knew I talked to the counselor about art she wanted me to Appeal back in for Art in the mean time I already met the Art Advisor and He believe this would be amazing for me, he helped me every way to make sure I get in.

I was told by my Career Counselor, I should go to the Career Fair to get a good experience in a Job opportunity, turned out the first only job that was really excited to want me was Aeropostale, I was shocked, and have also of thinking to do because I would have to leave my bookstore job for them. Same time I was concern about the appeal, so I had a back up plan, as always in order to hustle in my Life. I went to my college where I got my A.A. degree, to apply for the Management Bachelor degree. I still have more paperwork to turn in since I still live at home with my mom (talk about great benefits though).

Well I sent my Appeal and He email me back 2days later to say he was excited to tell me that I got accepted for the Art program. The great thing about taking art was I took drawing 1 class already for my A.A. elective class and I had so much fun and got a B+, I never thought m drawings would be graded that high. I am really nervous about this change in my life and having to realize that I'm 23 years old abut to become more adult to life. 

• Getting Accepted to the Fine Art major
• Got a job offer for Aeropostale
• Having Great close friends to be with and all are pressuring to reach for their career. No matter if they are married, far or near, they are the best supporters.

For now I'm still hustling everything before I have to let go of a lot of things and take dive in to the deep end. Goodbye 3ft deep pool, Hello 8ft deep pool. *Haha*

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From the Following Update of my Pervious Post

So from my pervious post on my update about how I was stressing out and wanted to change my degree and so on. Turns out the Career Counselor was no help at all, basically expressing the vibe to be that I must be very stubborn? Well, I had a sarcasm moment to my self-saying “That was helpful.” She was trying to grasp of what I’m into but I have way to much experience as well as what seemed to be interesting that I could do. Overall, the result was change your mange that could cause myself to stay in college longer or find a job before I could finish my degree and that might help me. With my disorder/disability makes it harder because I don’t if I can do it, that’s part of my stubbornness. After all the stressing, I still had no idea what to do. I told my mom all about it, she agrees that I’m way to stubborn and proud that I’m way to experience, but she believes that I could finish my degree with I high hopes. Well at this point no matter how much no one understands, I’m failing this one class I need to pass to move on in the degree program (sociology), I asked my advisor and he said I could still graduate in Fall 2015. So I explained that I might have to retake this class but I would have only two more classes and two more for the elective also one more for my minor. That brought my hopes up to know I almost done, however,  I still need: internships and a job that I could be happy about to work for right after I graduate even if involves moving.
That is another problem I am worried about, moving away for work and not know if I would still have friends and/or if they would support me on the move and still stay contact possible visit each other.
All I know is I really going to try even harder to make sure my degree comes before everything, and time management like I use to. I stopped because I wasn’t sure where and what to do with it in my room at home compare how I had it in the dorm at my freshmen pervious university.
Tonight (11/29), I just emailed my professor on the a paper I'm interested to do after the past week I could figure out what topic for the survey, so now I am going to clean my room. My mom is trying to do some Winter cleaning (Spring cleaning but during the Winter season), plus would help bring some peace in the house before the New Year.
My said I could rearrange my room because she has a gift for my room, so that means upgrade my room for a mature look, organize everything from closet to room, and clean out my room to be clean. So might help me distress and find a way to set up my study/ time management. That’s what I’m about to do, hopefully  I can get the answer from my professor telling me that I finally got it or I’m still going to so feel even more dumber.  

Its been awhile update

Hey everyone

I have been really busy to have time to sit down and blog or even to vlog on my YouTube Channel. Every time I tried I ended up wanting to just sleep. I know it might sound like an excuse, but if your a busy person you'll under stand. Beside working at my campus bookstore temporary and taking summer class, I also got involved in promoting for a local night club. I promote for them cause I go there often and since I have been going since August 2013, I got to know people to where its somewhat like a family. Since last summer everything has been changing mostly on friends, and now its still changing by avoiding negative  people. Others are either in a relationship, married, having a baby, have kids, or just doing noting. Its interesting how other outside of my "circle" and/or not Facebook friends notice I either need more friends or new ones. I think they meant I need friends who are somewhat has equal as me. working, in college, around the same age group, and more social. Also not always in drama, that is a thing that annoys me. Its always about someone, besides bring up the person for examples of what went bad or good is different than having to get them to move on /cut them off your life. Last thing about drama are those who are so negative, ignorant, and very unmannered; I never been so annoyed or uncomfortable around anyone who is always so negative that just beyond what I could explain, and someone who always just have no manners again I could not explain.  Another  reason the "outsiders" meant is because I'm still single, its sometimes hard to hangout with friends in a relationship because your single and they have a different view of fun. especially when you never had any experience of the dating ever (like me). Oh, and so no focusing on guys right now, when time is right it would happen.

Beside people, I trying to focus more on my studies, lately Ive been to distracted from drama after drama. I might seem MIA (missing in action), to them and they might think I'm ignoring them but out of all of my friends, I'm in school. again not an excuse but its true. they only know me for a few months but anyone I've known for years even since childhood/toddler knows me so well. School comes before anyone, no matter how difficult it is for me especially with my disability/disorder, and how social I can be. I might like being in school due to some really bad experiences I have gone through that No One not even my friends or Family knows, well besides my mom. I just enjoy better when I learn on my own or if there is a teacher/professor who makes the learning very interesting almost has if just meant for you to understand rather than being negative or just plain boring.
Lately Ive been struggling, so know I trying on my own knowing how to focus more in my studies than what is going on around me, Yes I get that easily distracted but its not always self discipline that helps (that annoys me the most when someone says this to me when they don't  understand not everyone could, some has to take medicine however I don't want to take a pill).
I feel like and was suggested by "outsiders" if I could have some friends that are also working, studies and social similar to me, I could be well balanced and not have so much drama besides just knowing when is everyone's free-time haha. Moreover, on the age as well, I am 22 years old till December 23rd, but again age doesn't matter unless your going bars or clubs (some are 18+ but the ones your actually dress for are 21+ only). 
The Last thing out of All That, I am saving money so I could move out to the student housing because commuting everyday sometimes three times a day every week for an hour is a ridiculous when that where your money goes to the most and having to get food when your out and about because if I make lunch and put in my lunch box, well let me just say with this heat it either melted, soggy, or spoiled ( ewww).  however, I am watching what I am eating and trying to get time to hit the gym, even if it for 15- 30 mins of cardio.

Basically, I am Focusing on Myself. By getting more focus on what is important to me than having to worry about others drama (they could handle themselves), Just know how to balance everything, and care on my health.

Are you going through the same thing let me know down below in the comments, Facebook your comments, or reply on the tweet. have any tips, advice or just want to share what your going through as well is fine by me.