My Starter Kit at being 24 years old

Now that I’ve been 24yr old for over a month now (Dec 23rd), I realize I need to upgrade and invest on getting things that are best for me. What am I talking about? Well I mean like:

•   Getting out of the lazy skincare routine: I don’t do much I tried but nothing works just breaks me out.
• Actual doing my hair:
•   instead of the old bun, braid, and pony tail look (it looks like I rushed out of bed to prevent from being late [85% of the time I’m rushing])
•  Getting the right product for my hair to keep it looking healthy and not so dull and dead/ewwy.
•   To actual dress like I’m put together:
•  I work in retail for about up to 30hrs a week and looking not so put together people would have no respect to me and the same you never who could be scouting/checking you out. They would know I probably have one pair of jeans and three leggings I wear and only sweater/flannels. I look why out of date when I’m trying to look like what we have in the store I work at.
• When I’m not at work, I’m an Art student I wear either a workout outfit with a sweatshirt, or a bit basic since I’m drawing I got to be very comfortable and not freak out getting charcoal on myself.
• When going out I real lack on my outfit planning, I would go by my mood:
• Do I want to meet someone?
• Girls Night Out: girly, upscale, or just getting drinks to celebrate our anti-valentine days. Lol
•   Just hanging with the boys/friends (coworkers/friends)
•   Date night (rarely/never happens)
•   Concert/event
• Etc…
• Wear some make up but doing it right too.
•    I don’t like wearing makeup because it bother my skin but I ALWAYS wear mascara, and now I try to make my brows my “lively” especially working in retail and the lighting in the store. I would like to wear makeup especially going out just don’t want to look like I don’t know how to contour/blush.
• The right shoes, all I wear are my Sperry’s. It’s comfortable but I not with all my outfits especially during our winter collection, I can finally wear sandals but still need trendy cute shoes.  
•   Including adding in my fitness routine into my schedule. I love the elliptical: while watching the tv show on it. I would love to go for runs outside but I’m start from the very basic on just trying to getting my body cardio, slim some unwanted fats, and not die incase theirs a zombie apocalypse (just saying). Plus I just want to be able to be in a health fit and improve my cardio.

Don’t worry I will be sharing my products and my routines, as well a possible weekly vlog.

Starting February 1^st (which is today haha), is when I’m starting my vlogs J,  you will get some clips of my life by following me around. I’ll try to edit them and post them once a week by Sunday on my YouTube channel. Well That’s all I had in mind and going to catch some sleep.

Have a good night/good day. J xoxo

(it was late when I typed this)

It a New Year and a New Me! 2016

Hey y’all I’m back

I know it been a while since I posted but here’s what’s up with my life even now that it’s the new year (btw Happy Belated Year of 2016!!!!!). So since I started my new semester at UNF as an Art student in the Fine Art major, I finished with two C’s (not bad passing wise, but I wished I could’ve of gotten B’s),  working crazy hours at my retail job as a Sales Lead Manager (I never hated the Holidays more working for it). If I had little less crazy from work and got more flexible with my classes I would have been okay, at least I passed and the school okayed me to stay in the program (even though I was supposed to get B’s to raise my GPA), and I am now taking Art History 2 online and Drawing 2.  I really got to focus on raising my GPA because it’s now a 1.09 (yay!):

So I started UNF from FSCJ with a 2.8 GPA, after Spring, Summer, and Fall semesters of having hard time with classes (failed most but passed a couple with C’s) when I was in Sociology major minoring in Urban studies which ended later so I had to take History as my new minor. My GPA dropped to a .94; which I thought it was insane ended up suspended for the spring semester, however due to my disability, many paper works, meetings with advisors, and the biggest help of from my favorite Career counselor, the school allow me back to a new major that accepted me. Normally the Deans of each Academic department wouldn’t allow those who are that deep in the struggles of GPA, but I had a feeling the dean saw something within me, they even don’t allow suspended student especially since the Art and Music are the Strictest in our school (to me though I don’t blame them).

I’m really making such I getting B’s (obviously I want A’s), as long I keep up with my project/homework and doing to the work. My job is a bit time consuming but if dint have especially with the pay I’m getting I wouldn’t be able to afford my classes/supplies or even commute to class. Now I’m in art I trying to discover my career path, my retail job is like an open door for: Sales, Marketing, Advertising, Management, Interior Designing, and Stylist. I was trying to have more of a fun yet get to be openly creative to what where I would get to work at. I’ve been looking towards working in the fashion field, I know right, not to many people know me but I use to collect all of Seventeen magazine and even look at others for the Fashion trends, styling tips, even got some advice from my mother since she a fashionista herself (she might know all about the fashion world but dressing up is no joke to my mom. Her closet of her fabulous clothes from her when she was in her 20’s til 2008 (she had her brain tumor and gain some weight from the recovery, she survived it)). I always had such interest in fashion, I might not like some of the girls I know who gets all dressed up and wears make up from known brands, and I’m a bit in my own style trend. I never know my exact “stereotype” of my fashion trend, I like to just make whatever I own work out and be very comfortable for the mood. I could write another blog on this. LOL

Back to the point, I couldn’t believe that how much I really enjoy art. I get so into it that I know I can’t cheat around or bullshit on my art piece because everyone could see it. I even get excited to try other art practices such as ceramic, sculpting, printmaking, even want to try to get photography in my elective. Like in my other many majors I’ve been in I would either get bored or find no point in the purpose for it to be taught. In art I notice that everyone in my class has to draw the same casting but they all have different technique of their own, unlike in my other majors someone paper could be exactly like my just worded differently or had better writing. I know it only the first 2weeks of the semester but I really can’t wait to see my drawing turns out in the end as well my interest in Art history. Speaking of art history, my first professor from Art history 1, she told us how she had a student who was a business major and need credits for his international business course, so after taking her for Art history 1 and 2, and later graduated. He ended landing a job because the Company owner/ceo or manger (he’s boss), has an interest in art that he collects them and even travel world to visit sites. He had a little conversation about their favorite period of art that he ended getting hired and would get invited to art events. Talk about amazing. I even have a Doctor ( in the military hospital, my doctors got deployed, some of them do get deployed or they are lucky to settle) who as such interest in art his wife is an artist and has a mini art gallery in his office (he wants one of my art to be in his galley when I come back for an appointment). Being in art, I notice that I see everything even more interesting in the values it holds, I usually like to stare at things and say things, but in art it’s like I learn to know “why I like it” not just “I like it” it like I have to go deeper. It really amazing it like they say “a picture has a 1000 words.”

Update in my Life: Almost 24years old

Hello its been so long since I last posted about my update in life.

if you haven't read it go back to my posts to catch up, meantime here's a rundown of what happened:

• Deciding between Majors
• I ended up getting accept in Art Major: Drawing, Painting, and Print Making Major of the Fine Arts here in UNF ( University of North Florida in Jacksonville, Florida) 
• I'm currently taking 2D design class and Art History part 1 (yes, I'm taking only 2 classes. I'm use to taking 4 classes since I started college, but for the Art major and due to my Suspension (I am required to take 2 classes every semester, make a B grade average or higher to continue the UNF, and my Job is taking up to many hours of my week) 
• Getting a Job
• I got a job in retail so going from Sales associate of the UNF Bookstore, I'm now a Sales Lead Manager of Aèropostale.
• I like my job however its way to many hours of my week that its hard for me (personally) to keep up with my Art. I work 30 hours a week which is not bad but try to work on your art projects that require atleast 5-10hours of your time to perfect it.

I am happy that I got the opportunity to have this job and getting accept in the Art program when I've been suspended from UNF, its just I'm almost 24 years old I barely get a chance to enjoy myself with friends and have a relationship with a guy (still kinda single, just unsure where I'm at with this one guy I've been talking too) anyways my biggest decision is should I stay with my job or find another job even if its another part time to allow me to spend more time in my Art projects.
I thought of this one job that I got a call back from thou I already got the job I have now. Its one of those 8am-5pm jobs, and the guy who as a manger really wanted me to work there even as a Student. I don't know if I want to move on to that job, I already got my next semester classes set and I could still work there if they allow, however later I would have to take night classes for the rest of my classes to be finish with my degree.
Now about my major, I'm doing okay with my Art History class, but with my 2D is a struggle due to not spending time on working patiently with my projects, its all rushed and ugly.
I'll let y'all know about the how I'm doing again in 2 weeks (end of the semester) to see if I stay in the Art program or not.

Have you been in a similar problem? How did you get through it? What is your advice? What do you think I should do?
Answer the questions don below in the comments, I'll try to respond back :)
Thanks for reading.

Final Decision part 2 and an Mini Update

If you have read my last post on (Oh Decision Making This Major or That )
well I made my decision which would be either shocking for you or kind of knew this was coming.... I decided to be in the..... Art Major!!!!!!
I'm so excited yet little nervous because its a very huge change in my studies and how my life will become.
Oh an update with my job, I'm now a Sale Lead at my store aka the 4th Manager. I like my work just there's so much responsibility and can not skew it up, its retail so I have to multitask my manger duty, helping with clothes, keeping up with my associates, and helping costumers with whatever they need. If anyone ever in a job in their life I recommend working in either Restaurants and/or Retail, both teaches you about costumers services and same-time see how people act if your into people behavior especially when out in public. Trust me I had to deal with the worst now because I'm also Manger and if I'm the only one that's on duty (OMG) the its just insane. I rather be an associate that calls the manger over than being the manger dealing the dumb problems. LOL
Back to my new Art Major the classes I'll be taking this Fall Semester are: 2-D design and Art History 1, only taking two classes because of my manger hours at work (25-30hrs a week). I can't to purchase my Art History book and buy my art supplies for my 2-D design class, I wonder how its going to balance out with work, classes, and my own little social life. With my disability this is going to be an interesting challenge that I am go to go through, instead of textbooks and papers I am making Art. Its not difficult its just a huge change in "study habits"; I do know I'm going to be challenge with my creative imagination to make a piece of art work.
Now that I have everything set and ready, I have to create a Time-Managing schedule for myself in order to have time for my own social life because I want to have dinner and/or go out for drinks with friends as well be able to go to events like art show, music festival, concert, or a road trip to wherever. Lets not forget even down time for my self to refresh my mind and soul, especially if I ever get asked on a date by a guy, he'll like the fact I have my own life but I can make time for us to go on a date or even stay in for the night. Well that's if I was dating, I'm still single (unless otherwise because that's a whole other confusion I don't understand about this guy lol).
Meantime now I'm just trying to work,  get with friends when we can, and trying to relax my mind because in the 24th of Aug, is my First day back to school after not being in school for 8months.
also figuring out about myself, trying to understand the meaning of music I listen too, trying to make  little time to read the favorite classics. I'll be 24yrs old soon (in Dec 23rd) and I want to make sure I at least have this far of my together, be mature and still enjoy the fun.

so what's your update in life?
Are an Art Student? or Majored in Art?
What's it like being in Art?
What Major are you in or What Major did you earn?
Any Advice?

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Oh the Decision Making: This Major or That Major

So as I mentioned in my pervious post (My Very Long Spring Break, if you haven't read it yet) anyways, I have some huge decision making (again) on what Bachelor would be: Fine Arts in Painting, Drawing, and Print Making degree or Supervision and Management degree.
I had asked my friends what they think and its both half and half vote, so I decided which really would be best for me as in what would say "I used what would be the most comfortable, excited to learn more of, and no matter what I learned to use critical thinking that would help me improve and use as I get older."
After I had the talk with my favorite Career Counselor when I was told Art would be best for me, I would stress less on papers and could use that stress to express in my art work. Unlike my management class I would learn nothing but business laws and how to mange. Now I did ask a few very few close people who's opinions matter the most beside family; it's mostly because either I grew up with them and/or we've been friends for short/long period of time, but still knew me very very well. Since Dance major was not an option (I wish ha ha), Art was chosen over Management because I'm more creative than serious (ha ha "Why so Serious?")
Now another decision is on: How would it take me to finish either degree?, How much would it cost for classes with/without finical aid?.
Depending on how many classes I take per semester, for Management: 1 1/2 to 2years; Art: 3yrs to more.  As for Art, I would have to take at least 2 classes per semester till my GPA goes up, till the Chairman's of Art department see that I am ready for the regular 4 classes a semester, and/or that my new upcoming job (for right now its my second job until my Training is over, oh yea I forgot to mention, I was asked and so I applied for Assistant Manger for Aeropostale at the local mall near my house. They have me in training as Merchandise Flow and better pay till I got the understanding of the Store, I learned a lot from my current job at the UNF Bookstore doing almost every positions in there and can't wait to move and learn more yet have a position a normal 23 year old would have), in which I would have to take a while because I will soon be having 30+ hours of work and the class for art are around 2-4hrs long, unlike management would mostly be online or hybrid (in-class lecture/presentation and mostly the class work/discussion online.  Also I could take my perquisites classes for Art at the local State/Community college than later transfer the credits back to UNF, or just take all my management class at the local State/Community college. its also a lot more closer (in a way) from my house and new work than UNF commute.
Now with the Career choice, I have no idea what I would really want to be, plus the whole you have to go for a job based on your major is myth, I found most people taken many Major of different kind from their college days than later went to take their MBA (Master degree) in what would be mostly best comfort or required for a job position/even just because they want to go for something else they want to go for.
I figure since the Highest I would go for in college is Master, even my mom is okay with that, she understand my frustrations in school in general is high and support my decision as long I get my bachelor.
At this point you might be wonder, "What major did you decided on?

I have decided on .........


Comment down below if you had to go through the same decision making, if so, on what major?
What major do think I should choose? or What do you think I will go for?
What was your college experience like especially during the decision making? how did you decided?and What's your major/What major are you going for?
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Update: I had a very long Spring Break

Oh my goodness, its been to long since I wrote anything in this blog of mine. Well, I'm back *haha*
I have been extremely hustling and resting this Spring, you might be wondering, are you taking any classes? This semester (Spring Term) I was allowed to take any classes. What? Really? How?
Well I ended up getting suspended for this Spring semester because of my failing attempts that domino from when I transferred to the University last Spring till just this past Fall. I pasted a few of my classes however the main reason was my 1st Core class out the four I would need for my Bachelor program in Sociology, I couldn't past the class even on my second attempt.

I could blame the fact that I wasn't getting the help I requested due to the fact I have a learning disability, as well as my professor has an ego that we should be up to his standard of a college student. Another reason could be I was pushing myself hard enough however I didn't feel passionate to push myself to go outside the box of understanding/studying for my classes. I had that feeling "why am I do this, if I love something I would be making myself go crazy to understand and push my limits to show that I could this and the benefits of getting a grade.

Further more of the reason, I might of been to into the social environment, I before during my last summer for my A.A. classes, I made friend who enjoyed going to the nightlife. The different between her and I, She been the social party girl and knows how to balance that, work, and school; Me on the other hand, I never club nor gone to the bars before (I've only gone to club back in my freshmen year at my very old college but maybe 6 times of that year just to dance after an exam/birthday). I never gone to the local clubs here in the city or to the bars since I finally turned 21 at the time. Since the couple of times I gone out with her after the semester and especially during her birthday night (never drank a lot before also learned to never mix drink), We are still good friends till this day and I'm not blaming her for anything at all, I thank her though for introducing me to the city socialize people from Big Djs, model, owners, etc.. talk about social networking.
Since I transferred to UNF while she was still finishing getting her A.A I met a few people from the club and school, been going almost every club night or Bar night (no drinking) to keep the social. OMG, I got caught to being really social it insane, now I trying to make it a strict rule for myself: only go to the club when its a Birthday, GNO, or Performance; Bars on some weekends with friends that way we all can go when we all have a night/weekend off. Being 23 now, I not going to lie but I got to experience the 18 or 21 year life I couldn't get to enjoy. Not going to lie I learned a lot about socializing with people it was like a social experiment.

The last reason, I started working as well right when I transferred to UNF, I work at the bookstore on campus and later on promoter for the club just to get extra cash. I never had to work when I was getting my A.A. degree so I had time to focus in my classes. However, the classes I was taking were to difficult to study ( I have a very poor study habit since I left high school). The same time this is my first actual job, I had work before and got my paycheck but all I done was set up and take down, and keep score for the intermural sports at Stetson. Here at the bookstore, I never thought I could work casher, retail, online orders, as well textbooks all in one. Since I have been working I notice that it took time from my studies, plus the fact both school and work are a 1 hour commute from my house. Now that I am not taking a semester of classes I just work however, they cut hours so I only work 2days a week which is ridicules for a 1hr commute.

The suspension didn't go the way I thought, I had to fill out an appeal to get back in the program as well back to UNF, they denied me from the Sociology. :(

I already talk to a Career Counselor to help figure out a major that would be best for me. She was Amazing, I believe I mention all about this experiences in my last blog post. Anyways, she suggested Art Major, she took art as a major and her husband was in the same boat too, it was nice that someone who not only been on the same boat o what to major in but the fact her husband had a similar struggle with his major before changing to Art. She believe I could express more and why not have a major where all you do is color, draw, paint, and play around with ceramic. Well because I got denied from Sociology, my new Sociology felt bad and she wants be to have great college experience and finish happy and prove myself to a successful life, she knew I talked to the counselor about art she wanted me to Appeal back in for Art in the mean time I already met the Art Advisor and He believe this would be amazing for me, he helped me every way to make sure I get in.

I was told by my Career Counselor, I should go to the Career Fair to get a good experience in a Job opportunity, turned out the first only job that was really excited to want me was Aeropostale, I was shocked, and have also of thinking to do because I would have to leave my bookstore job for them. Same time I was concern about the appeal, so I had a back up plan, as always in order to hustle in my Life. I went to my college where I got my A.A. degree, to apply for the Management Bachelor degree. I still have more paperwork to turn in since I still live at home with my mom (talk about great benefits though).

Well I sent my Appeal and He email me back 2days later to say he was excited to tell me that I got accepted for the Art program. The great thing about taking art was I took drawing 1 class already for my A.A. elective class and I had so much fun and got a B+, I never thought m drawings would be graded that high. I am really nervous about this change in my life and having to realize that I'm 23 years old abut to become more adult to life. 

• Getting Accepted to the Fine Art major
• Got a job offer for Aeropostale
• Having Great close friends to be with and all are pressuring to reach for their career. No matter if they are married, far or near, they are the best supporters.

For now I'm still hustling everything before I have to let go of a lot of things and take dive in to the deep end. Goodbye 3ft deep pool, Hello 8ft deep pool. *Haha*

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Have you ever been through a change like this?

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Ever change a College major, from what to what?
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From the Following Update of my Pervious Post

So from my pervious post on my update about how I was stressing out and wanted to change my degree and so on. Turns out the Career Counselor was no help at all, basically expressing the vibe to be that I must be very stubborn? Well, I had a sarcasm moment to my self-saying “That was helpful.” She was trying to grasp of what I’m into but I have way to much experience as well as what seemed to be interesting that I could do. Overall, the result was change your mange that could cause myself to stay in college longer or find a job before I could finish my degree and that might help me. With my disorder/disability makes it harder because I don’t if I can do it, that’s part of my stubbornness. After all the stressing, I still had no idea what to do. I told my mom all about it, she agrees that I’m way to stubborn and proud that I’m way to experience, but she believes that I could finish my degree with I high hopes. Well at this point no matter how much no one understands, I’m failing this one class I need to pass to move on in the degree program (sociology), I asked my advisor and he said I could still graduate in Fall 2015. So I explained that I might have to retake this class but I would have only two more classes and two more for the elective also one more for my minor. That brought my hopes up to know I almost done, however,  I still need: internships and a job that I could be happy about to work for right after I graduate even if involves moving.
That is another problem I am worried about, moving away for work and not know if I would still have friends and/or if they would support me on the move and still stay contact possible visit each other.
All I know is I really going to try even harder to make sure my degree comes before everything, and time management like I use to. I stopped because I wasn’t sure where and what to do with it in my room at home compare how I had it in the dorm at my freshmen pervious university.
Tonight (11/29), I just emailed my professor on the a paper I'm interested to do after the past week I could figure out what topic for the survey, so now I am going to clean my room. My mom is trying to do some Winter cleaning (Spring cleaning but during the Winter season), plus would help bring some peace in the house before the New Year.
My said I could rearrange my room because she has a gift for my room, so that means upgrade my room for a mature look, organize everything from closet to room, and clean out my room to be clean. So might help me distress and find a way to set up my study/ time management. That’s what I’m about to do, hopefully  I can get the answer from my professor telling me that I finally got it or I’m still going to so feel even more dumber.